T-MAN SCRIBBLEZ

Grumble

2012-01-28T14:49:00.002+08:00

;In 4 days, the first month of 2012u will be over. In 4 weeks, phase 1 of med school will be over. Time. period. A.m.a.z.i.n.g...; 2012 has been OKAY. Not great. But not bad though. It sure aa heck hasnt been a prosperous one. Its just four weeks till I leave this cash sucking blackhole and its goodbye budget. Hello melaka!

Somehow the weirdest most dramatic things happen to me. Have u ever heard of a toilet on fire? Well, the that was exactly how the new year greeted me. The chronology : my bathroom light socket had broken. Too cheap n too much of a hassles to get it repaired, I used candles as a source if illumination. Come new years eve, a pre party gathering was planned at my place so I left a candle lit.; we left to edge just half an hour to the break of new year. Had a great celebration to welcome 2012. Headed to the after party WEN I get a call around 3am saying : I think ur house is on fire. Fuck the alcohol. Adrenaline took charge for the next hour. I opened my door to a room filled with white smoke down to the waist. Opened the bathroom door, wat was once a flushing device hours ago was now burning waste on the ground. The candle had fallen over to the tank and ta-daa! The overwhelming helplessness .... A mistake that cost me 4.5k and constipation.

Moving on further into the new year, the attendance lists , though not complete, had been put up and half the class has been enlisted. For postings I suffer from shortage in obg only as I was away for week. Commed .pffft. Anyways, the college was kind enough to allow compensation through blood drive n marching to those with shortage. The blood drive went in smoothly though I had to make a scene as usual. Donating blood is a noble deed. I feel extremely shameless for doing it for the sake of attendance. The fact that I have done it twice before , sincerely, offers some sort of consolation but still.. =( The march pass ......... Was a roller coaster from the start. I sincerely appreciate the effort but u were lucky to get a spot in it considering the though fight among fellow batchmates to join. All you had to do was to show up for a total of 4 hours of practice and on that day. That also u failed to keep up to. Its bad enough that u made it extremely difficult for the people who wished to help you but u had the freaking guts to lie straight to my face. And u only have yourself to blame for the shortage despite the proxies. I will have to submit a list of those who were present for both practice n on that day. Give me one reason I should cover up for u - AGAIN. Well the overall performance was horrible on our part. But there's nothing much to expect WEN it was done just for the sake of attendance. For how long do u think u can get away with your bullshit? Reap what u sow.

On a different note. Things change and people are bound to leave. They may forget the things u have said to them, they may even forget the things u have done for them. But they can never forget the way u made them feel. Thats why , try to be a reason for their smiles and their laughter. Even if they leave, you'd know its their loss. Not urs.But i really do wish they dont. It was hard already the first time.

On a brighter side of life, Batch 25 won the Interbatch tournament 2011 =))) ahh.. SWEET moment of fame =)))

And, another trip to mangalore.

I know its not doing my budget good, but I insist on enjoying Manipal to the max before I return. Its my last chance. I have already compromised enough the past two years. =.=

So much for the resolution of being drama-free. pffft

Ill be smelling the sweet air of Malaysia in 4 weeks.*

*tERMS AND CONDITIONS APPLIED

2.0.1.2

2012-01-04T20:26:00.001+08:00

Dear God,

Thank you For the wonderfully loving family and amazing friends both in Seremban in Manipal. Pray we stay happy, healthy and together throughout the new year. Thank you for the bitter lessons and sweet rewards. Please continue to shower your grace upon us as we enter 2012. Last but not least , thank you for the gift of facebook =)

p/s : sorry Im quite the drama b*tch but I will try to work on it. Try.

With lots of love. Yours truly.

YO. 2012 is here. 2011 was a crazy roller coaster and there were times when I was literally hanging on to life but I learnt a great deal about myself. Aaannyyyywaaayss...

Happy NEW year People.

It was a bittersweet third and final new year in Manipal. It's always fun when everyone is having a great time together.

“There comes a time when silence is betrayal.” Martin Luther King

A bitter lesson i Learnt during the break. Many a times have I been swept with the intense sense of helplessness as practically nobody ( even the dearest of them all) had done a single thing to aid or defend at a time of crisis. I never wanted anyone else to feel the same way but somehow that night, I just did simply by not doing anything. I did nothing wrong, but I didnt do whats right when I could. The guilt is terrible. For the amazing person you are, please find it in you to forgive me.

At 3 am, I was at a friends place, I get a call " i think Ur house is on fire, come home quick" so much for my hopes of a drama free year. I ~~ran~~ hurried home to find smoke filled the room up to the level of my waist. Apparently, the candle I had left lit in the bathroom ( as my bathroom light was out) had melted to the end and the flame started feeding on the toilet tank of cheap plastic. I put out the fire of the burning plastic on the ground, walked back up and sat down . The intoxication, the guilt, the helplessness just ripped me from within. Not a great start. But yea.

I am currently at the library. Wasnt really planning on writing this post but since I cant connect to facebook, I had to justify my rs10. End posting is tomorrow. I learned learned shit for obg. My timings are always way off. pffft.. F1 and F2 will be united again come this friday for surgery and its four down and two to go. Thats 8 weeks more, and so long Manipal. Hello ~~MELAKA~~.. North India =S See lah how it goes.

My one hour is up. This was worth the ten ruppees =) Out!

Intoxicated

2011-12-11T09:02:00.001+08:00

Its 6.14 am Sunday 11th Dec 2011. Yea IM quite intoxicated but if such an act could bring fb about, wats there to be ashamed off. :)
Its been super hectic since I last posTed. With interbatch , annual day and LAGENDA one can only imagine the physical n mental exertion. As per interbatch, b25 is currently leading with a large advantage. We got the highest points for the cultural event and I hope our sports people bag the trophy for intetbatch. To mention a few issues regarding interbatch, its freaking obvious our group performed the best for the Indian dance and ive finally found it in me to not care of outcome of the competition. We proved ourselves once again during LAGENDA. You cant deny talent. We are the best and we need nobody to tell it to us. On a different note, to all those who assumed I wouldnt be able to lead a class of 147 ppl and bring batch 25 to great heights in interbatch, thank you for giving me the extra drive and encouragement. As much as I respect your rights to an opinion, I really wished you had more faith in me as a friend. No issues though but it was worth mentioning.
Annual day was blekz WEN it came to rehearsals and crap but it turned out to be an amazingly successful event. The lecturers performance were simply fantastic. More tman anything, I felt I actually looked great and took hundreds of pics to remember how stunning batch 25 looked on thst say. And LAGENDA really made me feel proud as a malaysian. I thibk us msians actually do take the diversity of our rich culture for granted and it us such events that dispel our ignorance. Its 6.30 now. Duwaraka opens in half hour. I need a cup of coffee and a good days sleep. Pics to be uploaded soon.

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So far in third year...

2011-11-08T19:11:00.000+08:00

I'm just goinna skip my apologies for the long intervals between successive posts henceforth as I'm somewhat accustomed to this tempo of updating this blog. This post is entirely to clear the very emo post below from taking the first spot. ~~Lol~~ I am now without an established internet line at home hence my accessibility to facebook and blogger is severely disturbed. But when there's a will there is a way and thanks to Airtel mobile services, *poof*

The past few weeks have been very exhausting but I do prefer this end of the spectrum rather than the idle unproductive end =) Interbatch is getting a whole lot interesting and batch 25 isnt doing too bad to say the least. Champions of mad adds, streetplay, volleyball, we are almost there if we keep the momentum going. Some of the other events that have occupied my days this third sem were the Dhol Baje ( am seriously goinna miss it once I leave Manipal), the Diwali open house and the Lanterns thing-y.

On a different note, it took some time for the F group to come up with their photographers but better late than never.

That's all for now I guess. Dont expect an update anytime soon and prolly you might be in for a pleasant surprise =)

~~My mood is still so out of tune =S~~

Haters goinna Hate

2011-11-08T18:45:00.003+08:00

I think after a very very long time Ive brought myself to hate again. Its such a strong word but yes hate. Not anger. For if you're angry, it only means that you still care. But I dont think its the case anymore. I just want nothing to do with the concerned persons. Nothing. The irony of the whole damn thing was I perceived them to be people closest, but in a matter of hours, i put the pieces of the jigsaw together and brought myself to see the entire picture. I have given in too much and kept quiet too often. I know I am a bit late in voicing it out but maybe that's just what you do when you care. I keep ignoring things coz the companionship matters most. But what if it works only one way and everything I did seemed to have been amplified and regarded as teh most heinous of acts when I never had any intentions of causing distress in the first place. The painful moment when the bitter reality establishes in your mind that you are only needed but never wanted is one that never fades. It will be hard erasing you. But I will bring myself to do it. For You are not the first , and for sure, you wouldnt be the last. I do wish you all the best in whatever you do. Clearly you are mistaken to think I am angry or am spiteful or in the mood to be vengeful. But I assure you, Im doing this for my own happiness and probably yours as well, since I was such a big irritant. I know Im being draggy but intoxication does that in a way. A lesson to learn here is henceforth, I shall point out any form of dissatisfaction for in my intentions of dismissing it, I actually bottled it up and gave you the opportunity to feed its malicious growth. Signing off hoping for the best for all of us. I still hate you b*tch

Diwali tempe style

2011-10-25T14:39:00.001+08:00

Its the morning before DEepawali and I laid wondering why on earth is the eve a holiday but not the actual day. Anyways, a very happy deepawali I bid to all Hindus, may the year ahead bring joy and prosperity to your homes. Despite rye distance from home, leave it to us mmmc-ians to rock diwali! This would be my last deepawali here in manipal - I better mahe the most of it. Tonight there is the lantern thing by the church people and also fireworks on our side to keep in tone with the festival of lights. And then tomorrow, its back to class. Pffft

Done with the three weeks if psych posting, I have to say its a great relieve as the days of doubting thy own mental status are over. Thank you for showing me that I have six out of the seven pre morbid personalities. The next three weeks : commed. Should be a lil more interesting.
Interbatch is starting this week and this time id am way more involved. Safe to say annual day is coming up and LAGENDA to follow suit. Wrong sem to be mengada but whats done is done. Somehow the circumstances favour batch 25 victory this time and we better win our last interbatch. Regardless the outcome, I hope everyone enjoy themselves by actively participating in the events.
Nothing more to update for now. Have a great diwali! God bless !!

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2011-10-02T17:21:00.000+08:00

Its the Sunday after the first week of class. Once again, sleeping in has become a luxury to look forward to at the end of every week. First week of class was pretty much uneventful - speaking stritcly in regards of classes and curicullum =P My first posting is Psychiatry. I solemnly swear the man upstairs is trying to convey a message. Anyways, now twe're in clinical years and the real training to become doctors begin. I have to admit I'm embarking on this new phase with a lot of anxiety. And the never ending introductory classes they had throughout the first week did not help at all.

28092011 is a day I would never forget. Not only did my 21st bday fall on the first day of the auspicious Navarathri celebration but also, I got elected to take the role as Class Rep of Batch 25. I understand I have some large shoes to fill in, and Im super blur about a lot of stuff at this point. Pray I make it through. Thank you batch 25 for the support. Hope I live up to their expectations. And moving on to me 21st birthday, though emo of having it away from home, the people here threw and amazing party for me at Blue Waters. Thank you to everyone who made it the day it was.

They say a picture says a thousand words. Safe to say, a collage could narate an epic =)

Fun aside, being in the prime of thy youth, i guess its high time to work on the crucial changes Ive given up on for so long. It would be a diificult journey but what better time to begin than now?

That's all folks. Till next time. Cheers!

i ALMOST forgot why I stopped doing these nonsense

2011-09-30T02:47:00.006+08:00

The finale

2011-09-25T21:22:00.001+08:00

Am back in manipal, for the last semester here. One would think that parting with home gets easier with each departure but you're wrong. That's thot. Congratz to all batch 25 who made it to third year. Second year was one heck of a battle. A new chapter is about to unfold upon embarking third year. Will be home for good in six months. So friggin fast my time in manipal flew. :(
The journey back was inevitably a memorable one. The flight got delayed by some fifteen minutes as the luggage of two passengers were missing before departure. Flight was good though. For the first time I would return to manipal via bus. Before getting on the bus, we decided to feast at pizza hut somewhere in Bangalore as we had time to kill. After dinner, we carelessly asked the driver to drop us at the VRL bus station not knowing that there were multiple stations and stands for the same bus around the same area. Arriving at the wrong station an hour earlier, we were capping the hour away. As the time of departure arrived, we realized something was wrong as the bus wasn't in sight at the station. I had gonee around scanning the number plates of the bus and our bus was nowhere to he seen. Finally nadesh broke the bad news thot we were at the wrong station after inquiring. From then on, adrenaline took over. With big luggage we had to take one auto each ti the right stand. I repeat: there are multiple bus stands of the same company in that area so we ended up in three different stations. A point to note: my phone had no Indian sim. I was unreachable nor able to reach the others. I was dropped off at a station at the station opposite the right one. So when I found out, I had to run. Bad day not to wear a belt:s
At the station, I learned we had missed the bus as I was twenty minutes late. My other two companions were not to be seen either. As hope was running out, I heard my name being called from a nearby auto. Thank god rowie had reached the same station. We then had to chase the bus at the next station. Meanwhile nadesh had got on the sleeper bus to manipal and he too headed to the next station. We were to meet in prakash nagar. We arrived earlier and manage to stall the bus until nadesh arrived. He had our tickets too:) we were numb in a state of shock for the next half an hour or so before we heaved a sigh of relief. We reached manipal at seven plus. Tension sial.
Returned to a room of fungus. Took the entire morning cleaning and the stench is still annoying me. Gah!! The cleaning continued today. Homesick setting in but should be okay once class start tomorrow. Hoping for a great last sem in manipal!!!

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Touchdown!

2011-08-30T22:32:00.000+08:00

lANDED in Malaysia 2 nights ago. As usual, there were delays and dunno why the flight took more than 4 hours this time. Anyways, am back home, done and over with 2nd year unis *cross fingers* Preparing for unis is a real experience : the tension, the sacrifices, the coffees, the drama, the swearing, the breakdowns, and most importantly - the coorperation. Its truly a heart touching sight when for every name on the viva list , there are at least 5 associates present for support continuously prompting the viva person until his/her turn comes. Pray , we all pass and step into 3rd year next month. I miss the times in Manipal, especially pre and peri-Unis times. I miss the Pharmac external. she was a real peach - a treat to the ears.

Anyways, we couldnt be pick a better time for our return as Raya and Merdeka are just around the corner. Before I continue, I wish all my Muslim friends a Selamat Hari Raya may the year ahead be filled with joy and good health to your families. Today, I had a superb Raya lunch. More than the delicious Malay food , which I had been deprived off the past 6 months, the warmth of their hospitality really made The Hari Raya celebration a great one for us. At times like this, one can be truly greatful for having such people as apart of your life.

Moving away to a more self-centered note, I got a new phone. Its an act of default rather than choice as my last phone was condemned. Sony Erricson W8 is amazing =)) My first touchscreen phone. In less than 24 hours its already been installed with Google, Facebook, Skype, Four Square, Gmail, Blogger, Twitter and counting =P Finally I can be involved in the angry bird rush.

Its great to be back home. Unis results should be out soon, so its quite an anxious scene here with the what ifs. Gahhhh.. Tension tension tension... Should be able to update more frequently

its raining , its poring - T-man is blogging =)

2011-07-06T06:42:00.000+08:00

2 days for block four and In two months , 2nd year will be over *fingers crossed* It just stopped raining, Its so cold and comfy but I just cant sink into slumber.Safe to say my circadian cycle is totally off track. Just have to power through lah these last few weeks. Block 4 is so blaah. I swear my neurons like super tepu-fied ady, it just cant absorb anymore. Lets move on, ~~I'm begining to sound like Nadesh~~.

Yet again, this site mengalami latency for quite a bit as the last post was like weeks ago. Usually I return upon a relapse of emoness but this time, its a sincere request to keep me blog going. I'm a very expressive person with much denied opportunities to express. And where else to ramble endlessly but here? Too bad the internet is written in ink, so a certain degree of anonymity should be practiced. So yeaa.. At some point, you just have to let go of even trying to entertain retards who acknowledge your presence only when there's a need. I apologize for the coldness but I just cant be fake. I'm not perfect, but Im glad I made my mistake - for they made path for the better more true things in life. Also, dont define yourself based on the judgement of others =(emo)=

Oh yeah, on a totally random note, I may have received - as I would bluntly put it - a wahyu from Him. That, or I may be paying a little to much attention to the voices in me head. I shant disclose it now, but the kebaikan sejagat its suppose to bring hasnt gained its prominence and Im suffering from an irritable bowel. A heavy price is to be paid for taking a shortcut. Pfft.. (Hint : G-inhibitors)

Med school sucks the fun out of everything laa
With every bite there's the fear of atheroscleroisis
With every chew theres diabetes
With every puff , there's bronchitis,

With every pint, theres cirrhosis

With every shot : Pancreatitis,

With every kiss, there's mononucleosis

And with every slurp... Syphillis =P

Couldnt be unfair to my fans who were expecting a little spice =)
There you have it, a tripolar - alternating between miang, perasan and emo. Good day/night

kegelabahan

2011-05-18T21:14:00.001+08:00

Again, its been awhile since I last updated, this time owing it to what may seem like an infinite load of words to comprehend and reproduce in 8 days. So much for my semangat and enthusiasm in attempts of raising my internals come this 3rd blocks...Got so much to ramble and complain about but at the same time, it there is no other way around it. Sure, they PREPONED the exam two weeks, but at least we get 5 weeks study break for Unis =) Patho okay, Pharmac okay, Micro KO-ing, Forensics -wtv =) Blahhhhh.. life , as it is, in grey scale =(
I swear my irregular circadian rhythm is goinna take a toll on me soon - last night slept at 6.30 to bangun at 8.40 to a 9am class. Then overslept during lunch break until I missed practicals.. Gaaah.
After such a long time, I found (was given) a good movie worth the time spent watching : Inception! Yea, I know I'm a little back in time, but better late than never rite?
Nothing else to say : Going back to Trichuris Trichura now.. haizzzz....
By the way, it just hit me that ano-oral route and faeco-oral route are two totally different modes of transmission, Eww. WTF

Dear Vgina,

I am requesting a pay due to the following reasons;

1. I do a lot of physical labour.
2. I work at great depths.
3. I plunge head first into everything that I do.
4. I work weekdays & nights, weekends and holidays.
5. I work in damp, dark and enclosed spaces.
6. My work makes me very prone to diseases.

Regards,
Pnis.
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Dear Pnis,

After long consideration, I am going to decline your request for a pay rise for the following reasons;

1. Your shifts only ever seem to be about 10 minutes long
2. You fall asleep after each shift.
3. You always have to be simulated, you never seem to be self motivated.
4. You are unable to work overtime or double shifts.
5. You work place is always messy at the end of your shift.
6. You have been constantly been seen entering and exiting the work place with to small, suspicious looking bags.

Regards,
Vgina

2011-05-07T05:23:00.000+08:00

this one post that leans towards the expressing aspect of blogging more than the sharing aspect hence it is my sincere request that you dont waste your time by reading any further.

dear ungrateful retard,

Thanx for deleting me-again. I'm sure you would be feeling very much like wonder woman. Its hard to talk straight to your face as I don't speak retard and you cant perceive good will. Thanx for treating me like crap the moment your relationship with your guardian resumed.The bitterness of your souls s so evident in your words. Thanks for turning my own friend against me. Your hypocrisy astonishes me and others for we know the manner of your speech. but since this is manipal, we close an eye to shut everyone up. I tried but failed. your cries of the world treating you like crap counteracts with your fake laughter - like all the time. for the world to hear. so yes, thanx for deleting me. I have one less headache to bear.

p/s : return my cash!

That actually felt good. it really does help to just lay it out. now for my good night's sleep =)

UNMENTIONABLY DREADFUL PUNS

2011-05-07T02:50:00.000+08:00

	The roundest knight at King Arthur's round table was Sir Cumference. He acquired his size from too much pi.
	I thought I saw an eye doctor on an Alaskan island, but it turned out to be an optical Aleutian .
	She was only a whiskey maker, but he loved her still.
	A rubber band pistol was confiscated from algebra class because it was a weapon of math disruption.
	The butcher backed into the meat grinder and got a little behind in his work.
	No matter how much you push the envelope, it'll still be stationery.
	A dog gave birth to puppies near the road and was cited for littering.
	A grenade thrown into a kitchen in France would result in Linoleum Blownapart.
	Two silk worms had a race. They ended up in a tie.
	Time flies like an arrow. Fruit flies like a banana.
	A hole has been found in the nudist camp wall. The police are looking into it.
	Atheism is a non-prophet organization.
	Two hats were hanging on a hat rack in the hallway. One hat said to the other, “You stay here; I'll go on a head”.
	I wondered why the baseball kept getting bigger. Then it hit me.
	A sign on the lawn at a drug rehab centre said: 'Keep off the Grass.'
	A small boy swallowed some coins and was taken to a hospital. When his grandmother telephoned to ask how he was, a nurse said, 'No change yet.'
	A chicken crossing the road is poultry in motion.
	Two ducks were crossing the road in Belfast. One looked back at the other and said “Quack, quack”. The other said “Ah cain't goo any quacker”.
	It's not that the man did not know how to juggle, he just didn't have the balls to do it.
	The short fortune-teller who escaped from prison was a small medium at large.
	The man who survived mustard gas and pepper spray is now a seasoned veteran.
	A backward poet writes inverse.
	In democracy it's your vote that counts. In feudalism it's your count that votes.
	When cannibals ate a missionary, they got a taste of religion.
	Don't join dangerous cults: Practice safe sects!

Wisdomous words =)

2011-05-04T03:12:00.001+08:00

I have been coming across many interesting sayings of late and I fear to be regarded as an attention seeker by updating my FB status like every 3 minutes, so here's a post to share =)

Assumption is the mother of all screw-ups.

Wethern's Law

The sooner you fall behind, the more time you have to catch up.-

Ogden's Law

Experience is that marvelous thing that enables you recognize a mistake when you make it again. -

F. P. Jones

If it happens, it must be possible.

Murphy's Laws

When the going gets tough, everyone leaves.

Lynch's Law

It is a mistake to allow any mechanical object to realize that you are in a hurry.

Ralph's Observation

Left to themselves, things tend to go from bad to worse.

Murphy's Corollary

Don't be so open-minded that your brains fall out.

People will believe anything if you whisper it.

The Whispered Rule

Help a man when he is in trouble and he will remember you when he is in trouble again

Never argue with a fool - they will drag you down to their level, then beat you with experience.

The Fool's Law

It's not the survival of the fittest, it's the survival of the slickest

Kohan's Law

The probability of somebody watching you is directly proportionate to the stupidity of your actions.

Know the rules well, so you can break them right.

Fate is the realization that you have absolutely no control of your life.

All wisdom ends in paradox.

There are two times when to keep your mouth shut: When swimming and when angry.

The longer you celebrate an accomplished task, the sooner you fail your next one.

Rule of Neutrality

To copy from one person is plagerism. To copy from many is research.

The ability to deceive others, is perfected through a lot of practice on myself.

The more you talk about how others are, the more others learn about how you are.

We ignore the ones who adore us, and adore the ones who ignore us.

To be alone is the greatest freedom.
To feel alone is the lowest prison.

The sole purpose of human existence is to kindle a light of meaning in the darkness of mere being.

Convenience sacrifices quality.

Remember this... that very little is needed to make a happy life.

Marcus Aurelius

Life is a tragedy for those who feel and a comedy for those who think

To Forgive is the Highest most Beautiful form of Love. Forgive all who have offended you. Not for them. But for Yourself.

Time may heal all wounds, but scars can last a lifetime.

A true man is one who controls his desires when he shouldn't .

Bed is a bundle of paradoxes; we go to it with reluctance, yet we quit it with regret; and we make up our minds every night to leave it early, but we make up our bodies every morning to keep it late.

Crazy, how in life to really describe one end of the spectrum you have to be at the other.

Allen Blanks

Use, do not abuse; neither abstinence nor excess ever renders man happy.

Voltaire

And now for my favourite :

being enlightened with the higher truths of life doesnt save your ass from the pharmac test tomorrow

T-man

And to all a Good Night!!

Bi@tch

2011-04-30T04:17:00.000+08:00

Pffftt! Karma likes to practice the 69 position coz it believes you should get as much as you give. Exhibit A : Pharmac class todaaay. =( I know the message was like super duper massive but the universe need not conspire against me IMMEDIATELY as the teacher called me up in front of the whole class to explain a concept I had falsely understood. Very embarrassing but I will never forget the lesson learned. lol

Tomorrow is going to be the Tamil New Year celebration. I wish to share my guilt on actually taking 100 rupees from those under my wing but really I wish you could understand, this money isn't for ME, nor is it for THEM - it is for US. We cant have a function for the Indians without your RS100. In my opinion, even if you;re not intending to attend, you still have your responsibility right to make it happen? Controversial, I know - But that's my say. Sometimes, one may just need a frame shift in one's own mindset to think of the better of everyone. I understand those who don't celebrate it - I'm with you on not paying, but the system that bluntly divides us to 3, kinda makes it hard for us to justify. As matters regarding the other batches are concerned, some people are really walking bowls. In a place where you solely depend on those physically closest, you'll wanna mengada so much and deny the opportunity of ice breaking. Whatever maybe your choice, stand by your ground with no regrets =)

Moving away, my bipolarity is growing more and more prominent as even I am able to notice it and people actually decided to mention it to me. I am aware my rage has this threshold, passing which causes disastrous lashes of piercing words. It is normal at come level in everyone - we do try to keep calm but I suppose, I dont actually deal with the problem straight, hence the ketidakpuasan feeling doesn't die but it grows as the recollection of the dialogue and matched actions replay again and again in my head. Blame it on not having the balls to speak up straight - but suppose even if I do gather the courage to do so, I don't think it will actually bring about the difference I had intended to in the first place. Thick skin is such a quality I wish I possessed in a very non-literal way. Anyways, blessed I am to have thy minions who are thorough with my freaky ways =) Thank you for being there in this shitload of crap.

On a lighter side, my MSP Poster is like done....its freaking beautifulll! please come see it next Saturday aiteee : batch 25 relly put a lot of effort in this nonsense so please make it worth =)))

Easter Sunday

2011-04-24T16:03:00.002+08:00

Happy Easter people!

However, while some are celebrating the rise of their Savior from the grave, there are those mourning the loss of their Guru. Woke up to a text breaking the news of Swamy's demise today - news have been aired that He was sick but I didn't expect his leaving would be so soon. I had only recently been enlightened with Swamy's teachings after I joined the bhajans in Manipal. Though new, I still feel the loss as though it was a bond we shared since the day I was born. May His soul rest in peace and pray He continues to Shower his Grace upon us.

Death is a terrible terrible thing but yet, in all unjust - it seems to be the one thing that gives meaning to life.Recently, I read in the posts of a friend his description of his loss of his father. I cant put myself in his shoes, none can unless they have experienced the loss of someone that dear to them. The loss of one life changes EVERYTHING for others. At the loss of someone, we tend to regret our wrong doings towards that person and we hope he/she had pardoned us before leaving this life. That's why they say, love quickly and forgive easily. It's never easy to rid yourself of vengeance and anger - we are all born with them. But by growing love towards, u leave no space for the two to manifest in your thoughts, words and actions.

Well, the joys of birth and the sorrow of death and everything in between is just the never ending cycle of life that we try to break free from. Though we may be mourning over His passing away now, we are soon to rejoice His reunion with His children. Give time Time.

On a lighter side of life, yesterday was Vivian Mellisa Anthony's 21st Birthday - there was a birthday party at Mandavi Pearl City followed by an after party at edge. But the highlight of the night was what happened after Edge - as some were hungry, and others just didn't want to withdraw from the day just yet, the herd made its way to Planet Cafe. 5 minutes after placing the order, the guys there urged us to hide as the police were coming. Okay, usually, hearing the words "police coming" does bring about a degree on anxiety within me, apatah lagi under the influence of a certain level of intoxication. Gaahh.. Lol. After hiding for what seemed like hours, we were allowed to come out to discover that the police had punctured the tires of our bikes. How much more lower can tempe's stoop?? At least it was a Birthday worth remembering.

I guess that's as much as I would be writing for now. Hope u had taken notice of the integration between T-man Sribblez and Facebook. I dont really know how to manage it that well yet, but if it starts to get annoying, it should be done away with. Lol. Happy Easter again people. God bless =) to the people I sent personal texts, I'm expecting the chocolate eggs tomorrow at 10.am.

good friday!

2011-04-22T15:22:00.001+08:00

Nothing beats the feeling of waking up to the alarm at 7 and instead of pressing snooze, you switch it off to drift back to slumberland for another 3 hours. juvenile, i know - but at some point, I'm just so desperate for a break =) Anyways today being Good Friday, the long weekend is expected to turn up to be a disastrous attempt to catch up with the piling "in" tray. I swear I may have compromised a bit too much of the nerd factor bila masuk 2nd year - very very bad thing to do. At least its setting back in come the 3rd block.

MSP project is like more or less complete - can see the light at the end of the tunnel adyy. Just another hour or two on copying and pasting and *PRESTO* done! I have actually learnt a lot via this MSP project - things that may or may not affect me : one - flavoured condoms are only for oral sex, ONLY. two - penile rupture is the most painful pain painfully imagined. three - I learnt how to double space a single spaced word . four - I learned the existence of open office five - tempe's skemaness isnt such a bad thing after all. Just cant wait for the presentation and to get it over with.

I came across another good book, Im sure many of you;ll are already aware of THE 5 People You Meet In Heaven. If u believe in the Secret, you could relate when I say I feel the Universe in finally answering my many many questions by arranging my encounters with tales of such kind. Somehow I have come to believe that there is no such thing as a co-incidence. It was to happen - for you , and for the other. People have themseleves skeletons up in their closets - You could hide it from everyone but not from the one person you truly want to hide it from: yourself. Dwelling in the past is such a waste of energy - every mistakes has its lesson to learn from and every right choice has its fair share of sacrifice. Many people walk in, and walk out - everyone who walks in, walks out coz when we leave, we leave alone. But the ones that mean the most are the ones never willing to leave. Justice doesn't court over life, neither over death- but over both at the same time. As unfair as the current predicaments may seem now, I suppose its like a part of this big master plan that is in store for the good of all of us. Thing about it..

Yesterday I was conversing with my Australian friend, Gita M. Indukuri about the current political issues hovering over our country. I don't want kena tangkap ISA so I shan't say a word more here but in the midst of the intense convo, the dormant emoness of being rejected by IPTA resurfaced - again. Somehow, I never could and never would digest that I actually didnt make it. Was the whole process actually fair? Or was it just a painful sway to get me to Manipal?

Coming to Manipal, ... a million and one things can be said but I just cant find the right one to start off with. Undeniable, education quality here is very good but they very very skemo over small things. Exhibit A : MSP. Thank God 3rd block isn't much of a nightmare ( or maybe just not yet). I've had time for everything so far. Must be getting good at the juggling. The spectrum of characters you encounter along you 2.5 year journey is simply over whelming. *writer's block for 30minutes* I've learnt way many things here - perhaps too many but at the end of the day, the only thing that matters : No regrets =) Cheers!

Also an anual dillema on this day , do you wish people Happy Good Friday? Or is it a greetingless holiday? anyways,

As proposed by senior Antony K. Have a reflective Good Friday!

Sunday morning

2011-04-17T15:59:00.001+08:00

Updating once more from Manipal. Yes, I have entered the second semester of the second year ie. Unis is just around the corner. Yes, 5 months is just around the corner. A "pause" button would be a peach right now. A forward button , a pomelooo =xp ~~( lame, i know)~~ Anyways, nothing new in this sem. Everything has changed and more changes to expect. In and out , back and forth - nothing ever changes though everyday is different than the previous. Gahh.. Back in Manipal, the crappiness begins all over again : the budget, the heat, the dust, tempeks attitude, makanan tempek. Gahhhh.

Upon my return to this wonderful place I call my hoe away from home =.=, I stumbled upon a book entitled " My Sister's Keeper". Oh My God. Out of all the books Ive read, this really spoke out to me. It's been a long time since I found a really good book that I really got into. The jist of it being a girl was diagnosed of leukemia (apl) at the age of two, her parents conceived another girl - but she was genetically designed to match the needs of the sick sister. Wouldnt wanna ruin the surprise if you decide to pick up a copy so that's about the extent to which I would share. Many people around are blissfully unaware how when a member is sick, it tears the family down. Everyday is a fight, everyday brings new hope : stronger or weaker ; everyday is the day before the exam, every sleep is a disturbed sleep. And there;s just no escape. One would just have to deal with it. Only a person in their shoes can understand the gravity of the aforementioned. And yet mangkuks around me can emo over petty petty stuff - some can deliberately compromise their piece of mind chasing materialistic goals - others argue over the slightest matter. We truly do not appreciate our true gifts until He takes them back. I have nothing much to say for now. Pray the sick children across the world and their families that their prayers are answered. We have a million and one wishes we could easily do without, they only have one - their lives.

Just to loosen thhose tight brows and swollen glottis , here's a few L.A.M.E. ones ;

Why did the Chicken cross the road?

It was running away from the Colonel

Why did the bubble gum cross the road?

It was stuck to the Chickens feet.

Why did the computer cross the road??

It was downloading a chicken

wat did the egg tell boiling water?

its gonna take u a while to get me hard.. u see the chick over there, she just laid me

Have a great week ahead. Cheers!

Grumble grumble grumble

2011-03-15T12:43:00.000+08:00

Malaysia is not the best country to handle a global crisis occuring in a distant land. Imagine if it were to happen here in , di Tanah Air Tercinta? Diela all of us. Mooving on, this tsunami is like pretty major. It has altered the Earth's axis, it's brought the moon closer to us, the nuclear hoo-haa. Pray God have mercy on us. The 2012 Apocalypse doesn't see much of a myth anymore. I just got hit by this wahyu that we are living at the mercy of Nature an the Universe. Like anything can happen anytime - and I mean ANYTHING ; ANYTIME.. Wonder what else is in store for the year.
I have two weeks left in the pan, before I leap back into the fire. I'm really getting sick of this whole ordeal but I really have to get through with this crucial phase. Just another year to hang on to. I really miss everything I have back here - there is just too much to give up when I moved to Manipal. Anyways....
Looking forward for more durians tonight. =)

Of Tides and Times

2011-03-12T13:29:00.000+08:00

It's been a while. It's a bright sunny morning here in Malaysia. And yet, at the same time, one corner of the world would be waking up from a catastrophe this morning. I'm sure by now all are aware of the 8.9 ( CNN sed it was upgraded to 9.1) earthquake in Japan as it had been flooding the social networks throughout the day yesterday. At one time, these victims witnessed the 2004 tsunami through the pages and screens of the media, 7 years later - they're living through it. Gives you the feeling that your security blanket is being tugged away aint it. Man dwells in the delusion that we Master the earth around us, but when Mother Nature takes just a step forward - we drown in the dark waters of helplessness. This is one example of the many unpreventable predicaments mankind would have to endure - a lesson to value our lives to a greater degree. My prayers with the survivors in Japan.
Mooving along to more internal affairs, now you can study medicine anywhere in the world but you'll have to sit for an examination before practicing It's really goinna solve the lack-of-doctors-in-the-country crisis despite the increasing number of students aspiring to be doctors?? Seelah how. Seems to me, we are guinea pigs of trial and errors. Also a few days back, they set a deadline for traffic summons - officers and the operating systems couldn't cope with the traffic. Seriously?? That many offenders and that lame of a system. Pfftt.
Last night had the best outing in the past one year. Better than every other put together - and all we did was just talk. =) I really miss being at homeeee. I cant believe I actually left to Manipal. Haiz.. Every mistake has its lesson behind, every right choice has its share of sacrifice. *bitch pleaaasee* Anyways, thank you Miss Sashillia and Mr. Yugendra Subramaniam.

bliss and bless

2011-03-04T11:43:00.000+08:00

Finally have the time to note something here. Been through the vicious cycle of being busy then lazy then busy again =P Anyways, Its good to be home. Some things just dont change - its annoying but if you cant change it, than that's just reality. Live with it and grow up so that it doesnt bug you too much. Pfft. Anyways, coming to the point of thy post. Wednesday was Shivarathri. Luckilly I got back in time to celebrate it here. It was good to get the chance to recharge myself =P Also a day, to count and be grateful for your blessings. Its not easy being in a prolonged family crisis - its even worse to deal with it alone, from abroad. There's much to sacrifice, much to compromise and many more you're forced to endure. At a time of despair, when I had nowhere else to turn to, I can only be grateful now, after all that has happened, that I'm much closer to You. It is always darkest before dawn. I have finally attained the smallest bit of understanding your mysterious ways, hence I shan't question You and the current predicament. =)

While I'm here, just want to note that it'd be great if i was given a chance to make my stand. This my come as a surprise but I DO have my own bunch of grey matter to utilize. uh-huh. B.D.W, I can so pull through the whole poker face thing. Now that's a trait that's gonna be handy on more than one occasion

a morale update

2011-03-02T15:50:00.000+08:00

Lesson 1

A man is getting into the shower just as his wife is finishing up her shower, when the doorbell rings. The wife quickly wraps herself in a towel and runs downstairs.

When she opens the door, there stands Bob, the next-door neighbour. Before she says a word, Bob says, “I’ll give you $800 to drop that towel.” After thinking for a moment, the woman drops her towel and stands naked in front of Bob. After a few seconds, Bob hands her $800 and leaves.

The woman wraps back up in the towel and goes back upstairs. When she gets to the bathroom, her husband asks, “Who was that?”

“It was Bob the next door neighbour,” she replies.

“Great!” the husband says, “did he say anything about the $800 he owes me?”

** Moral of the story:
If you share critical information pertaining to credit and risk with your shareholders in time,
you may be in a position to prevent avoidable exposure.

Lesson 2

A priest offered a nun a lift. She got in and crossed her legs, forcing her gown to reveal a leg. The priest nearly had an accident. After controlling the car, he stealthily slid his hand up her leg. The nun said, “Father, remember Psalm 129?”

The priest removed his hand. But, changing gears, he let his hand slide up her leg again. The nun once again said, “Father, remember Psalm 129?” The priest apologized. “Sorry, Sister, but the flesh is weak.”

Arriving at the convent, the nun went on her way. On his arrival at the church, the priest rushed to look up Psalm 129. It said, “Go forth and seek, further up, you will find glory.”

** Moral of the story:
If you are not well informed in your job, you might miss a great opportunity.

Lesson 3

A sales rep, an administration clerk, and the manager are walking to lunch when they find an antique oil lamp. They rub it and a Genie comes out. The Genie says, “I’ll give each of you just one wish.”

“Me first! Me first!” says the admin clerk. “I want to be in the Bahamas, driving a speedboat, without a care in the world.” Pouf! She’s gone.

“Me next! Me next!” says the sales rep. “I want to be in Hawaii, relaxing on the beach with my personal masseuse, an endless supply of Pina Coladas and the love of my life.” Pouf! He’s gone.

“OK, you’re up next,” the Genie says to the manager. The manager says, “I want those two back in the office after lunch.”

** Moral of the story:
Always let your boss have the first say

An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing. A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him,
“Can I also sit like you and do nothing?”

The eagle answered, “Sure, why not?”

So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the eagle and rested. All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

** Moral of the story:
To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.

Lesson 5

A turkey was chatting with a bull.

“I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree,” sighed
the turkey, “but I haven’t got the energy.”

“Well, why don’t you nibble on some of my droppings?” replied the
bull. “They’re packed with nutrients.”

The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second
branch. Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree.

He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.

** Moral of the story:
Bullshit might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there.

Lesson 6

A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field. While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the
frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A
passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

** Moral of the story:
(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy;
(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
(3) And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep your mouth shut!

Home =)

2011-02-23T07:53:00.000+08:00

Its 5.10 am. The insomni-a-thon continues. Only this time, I'm actually mugging up the classifications and characteristics of various ways of dying. Quite the irony right how in the pursuit to the noble profession of saving people, the syllabus makes you want to kill Yourself. Whiners are wieners, so my grunting ends here. I'll be smelling the sweet air of Malaysia in less than 3 days. Woo-hoo! It'll be more sickeing to come back though this time round, as we'll be in the uni-going-sem again. Seriously, I feel like first year was JUST over, and poof! I'm struggling with microbes and their antidotes. Father Time sure is on an overdose of Redbull. Eee! Cant wait to leave the exam hall tomorrow! I'll be going to Kollur again tomorrow - 2nd time this year. I really need it. Really. The wheel of life has its ups and down.-Mine just hit a pebble. *stop rambling t-man!* so, moving on to a happier note, I have plans ady to look forward to once I set foot in the region once known as Sungai Ujong - the one place I truly feel the sense of belonging =) Gaaaaaaah! I cant believe ada orang yang sangat skema untuk classify cara nak mati bila takde udara dan bila kena bakar. Burn means burn la. If only Rihanna walked into thier lives like a few decades earlier *lame* Loser-much.

DONE!

2011-02-22T04:19:00.000+08:00

Finally! A sigh of relief! This is far by the most mentally exhausting examination I've ever sat for, in my life. And the more I actually studied for the particular subject, the worse I did for it. Seriously, W.T.F!! All parts and partials of 2nd year. Relieved, I may be , for now but the bang await my coming in 6 months time. Really just want to get 2nd year done and over with. It's been a really crappy year la. FML. OOOhh! Ill be home in just a matter of days! Have to settle the SP office crap tomorrow I guess, and get my mother something. I cannot believed those mangkuk microbes displaced my mother;s Birthday in my head.. Quite shameful =( Anyways, Ill be back soon! On a more emo note : Batch 23 has left Manipal. Its gonna be a lot more quiter now - especially on Saturday nights =( I oso wanna go back for good fast, but I'm sure when the time come, I would take my words back. Uhuh. What will be will be. Terpaksa go with the flow =)

You know who you are =)

2011-02-15T03:26:00.000+08:00

Hey there , my dear good friend,

It's you, tonight I'm missing,

Its almost 2 years since I've been away,

In our 4 years of friendship, and counting

Funny, it is, to think of the start,

Of blah and fugs and the multiple eeee,

Never did I think someone so sweet,

Would be my buddy - forever to be

I know my words, my expressions and gestures,

May seem like I'm on testosterone rush, 24/7,

But deep down , the many layers of dermis,

We both know, I take you as thy closest friend

I love myself, when I'm around you,

Sade to say, on this I'm not alone,

For there's nothing to hide or behave around you,

Coz to judge me, I know you wont

I know life is a bitch at times,

And now the fact that we're many miles apart,

If only you could see yourself through my eyes,

To see this little girl with a great big heart

Nothing much, I have to say tonight,

The lack of space is a clear sign,

We'll meet soon , dont you worry alright,

My dear gangster, my friend, my Valentines <3

-T-man-

V-day

2011-02-14T02:49:00.001+08:00

I guess this will be the first time I'll be having a Valentine's day away from home.. And to add salt onto the wound, I HAVE to spend it with my nose stuck in between the pages of Tara v. Shanbag's. 2011 is all about the wrong timings I suppose. Anyways, Happy Valentine's Day people! to all my friends back home and here in Manipal. Not many are much into the mood of celebration due to the ongoing examinations and for us, approaching blocks. Good luck people =) Good thing is, the semester is coming to an end and we'll get to go back soon. 2 weeksXD

Valentine,s Day , to me, is simply a day to acknowledge and appreciate the connection ad bonding shared by two people in any inter-personal relationship. Though being single for the past 21 V-days ( double actually), I've always managed to make the most of the significance of the day. It'll prolly be more meaningful if one were to be in a deep meaningful relationship, but to those less unfortunate ones, we still have our fellow minions to have a great day.This time though, I held down to my books =( so potong steam to my repo.. but wat to do? I have to friggin conquer blocks this time =)

By the way, just decided to note a point to ponder on : ever realized that Children's Day is celebrated 14th November exactly 9 months after Valentine's Day?? Blame on coincidence, or on mere technicality - it's your call. Speaking of coincidence, V-day?? Really??

So much has changed since last Valentines, the dissociations and re-associations. But it always works out for the best of everyone. We let people walk in and walk out of our lives, but believe it or not, they always leave their footsteps. I miss the nonsense drama back home =( T'was much easier to handle and I always had a bigger role =P Anyways, wishing all of you A happy Valentine;s day again with love. Have a great day with your loved ones. God Bless.

Love really is the most powerful frequency in the spectra of emotions.

My valentineS all these while:

and plan B =)

I rather serum sickness than being home sick =(

zee end

2011-02-11T20:06:00.000+08:00

Classes for block 2 finished today. F.I.N.A.L.L.Y! 6 days to blocks, then 6 days after that to balik =))) This time , I mite have some time to shop in Bangalore as I will be staying overnight. Yada yada.. Block 2 was a real bitch. And somehow I got into trouble way too many times.. In class, somehow the cikgu-cikgu yang ajar pasal ubat-ubat selalu cari pasal and All I did was smile, or look down without copying. Im sure it's my fault that sawan is pronounced gunting, and berdarah is said like its part of the Play-Doh package. I dont mean to be offensive but I guess they took it the wrong way. Law of attraction is working in a real ~~fucked~~ up manner. Emo attracts more emoness. Anyways, that's the LEAST of thy problems. I'm troubled over the attendance thing-y. I dont want my parents to get another (greater) shock this time round. Other than that, I may have given too much attention to pharmac until I neglected the needs for micro. =.= I am actually quite messed up this time but I'm sure I'll pull it through. Yea.. People are so judgmental - especially in this place of nothingness. Its like I have a someone breathing down my neck at every step just waiting for a flip =S .So I have 6 days for revision- it should suffice. Batch 24 and 26 are about to sit for Unis tomorrow. I wish them all the best. The anxiety of sitting for Unis drains way more energy than actually preparing for it. My turn in 6 months =( I'm finally going for bhajans tonight. I hope I can sing. But Im loosing my resonance ... Ouch! I am very much aware that I wasn't gifted with a golden voice nor did I pursue the journey to attain it ( I wanted to, but was dismissed ) but I really love to sing, and I try to make the best of the little that I have.

By the way, I was blog-hopping or whatever it is called, and I found this :

Hahaha.. Uber nostalgic=) The thing I miss most back home is just being MYSELF. Dont get to do that a lot here. Prrrftt. Till next time

Slithery surprise

2011-02-10T02:47:00.001+08:00

I attract drama into my life - don't think I have ever lived a day not having something exceptionally abnormal happening throughout the day. After a year living in my den in Aacharya Compound, and carefully having the place impermeable to the entry of those spineless arthropods into my territory SOMEHOW a snake seemed to have invaded my space. Trust me, never have I had such a rude wake up call ( from my afternoon nappie time) than by discovering a snake gliding in BETWEEN my legs. OH MY GOD. It was all over my room trying to get out, I dare not lay my feet onto the ground. It definitely wasn't a cobra, but it was REALLY really long and thin. It then entered the wardrobe. I called the office lady to send the gardener. He managed to get it out. It was totally harmless - but the fact that such a specimen could enter my room is really disturbing and I suppose its only gonna aggravate my chronic case of insomnia. Yuck yuck yuck. I do like snakes, cobras actually. But not to the extent of coming in close contact with them. I so wish I had a camera to take a pic of it. That's about the highlight of my day today. EEEEEE.

Tomorrow we're having a Patho marathon. 1 hour of liver, 2 of breast and a pracs session. Thus ends the classes for block 2. In a week, Ill be sitting for my test. Wow, 3 semester down(ing), 2 to go =)

Gaaah!!

2011-02-09T04:26:00.001+08:00

Yes, I am about to rant once again but not for long though =P We're finally finishing the syllabus this week ie. next week is free for a study break. But seriously, classes are kinda crappy to attend nowadays though everytime there is bound to be in-house entertainment especially if its the subject on ke-ubat-an. There is a pharmac test tomorrow on anti-viral drugs. Instead of having STD as a lecture class, I seriously feel that it could have been swapped with the SDL test topic.By the way, the class actually started with a blow- literally =P Tomorrow is the really really annoying test-lab-lab day.. haiz. its so consoling that it would be the last of its kind. This evening, I got a call from home - and as usual, I panicked owing it to my paranoia as it was very unusual for them to call me at such a time. Turned out, my results for Forensics 'were withdrawn" kononya due to the lack of some mandatory crap viz a viz. insufficient attendance. =.= that created quite a turmoil back home as I had to explain it separately to my parents. No offense, but MMMC is really REALLY ~~skema~~. 90% attendance. And I had only missed two classes for block 1. Imagine the reaction when my block 2 result slip has reached home , given my frequent stays at KMC Hospital. Chilla, the time will come. Deal with it, one step at a time =) I have my grounds. Which reminds me, I have to submit my MCs to my beloved mentor. Sighz,.. who said Life couldnt be a pocket full of sunshine
By the way, at the end of my whining, I do wish to make worth of the time taken by my faithful readers by passing o this very crucially vital piece of information :

DO NOT WATCH THE HUMAN CENTIPIDE!!!

It is disgusting, pointless, traumatizing and just plain grosss... Under no circumstances am I challenging your guts, I honestly want to the world some good by saving people from this weird weird movie. I actually passed out halfway while watching it with my friend. O.M.G. The flashback still sickens me.

On a totally different note, I suddenly stumbbled across this song from Hercules as I was bore-owsing through Youtube today and I just feel that I am finally on my journey, like right now. I dunno, thi ssong just reached out to me on so many levels =))

I have to return to my pharmac now - I was hoping it would cure my insomnia but I was clearly mistaken. Till next time =)

ZOMG!

2011-02-06T02:59:00.000+08:00

OH EM GEEEE... Just as I was mourning over the fact that tonight was goina be the first boring Saturday night for the year, she calls me xP Her voice is still resonating inside, hindering the composition of this post. After a series of unfortunate events, God has Opened a Window for the beaming sun rays to shine right through. The voice to which I answered to this faithful night:

This has been like my favourite song EVER - the words, the tune, the singer : and I dare say no one else can sing it to give the feeling as Sheila Raman does...
Thank You Bindhu Sukumaran!!!! God bless you.
Anyways, to fall back down to earth:

21 days to depart from tempeness.. I've made it three semesters, you would think another 3 weeks would be a bearable wait ! Gaaaah.. I've come to realize that I have been actively updating this site frequently over the past few days, I think literally everyday there is something to ramble about =) But not today =P

My tonsils are still condemned- and so is my phone and my bsnl line. Bdw, that cavity that has been bugging me for like half a year now has finally been stuffed , and when I say cavity, I mean tooth cavity =) I finally started my MSP today - and thankfully, after all that sloughing and hard work, its done. Yes, in a day. we were that dedicated and efficient. My face is numb from smiling too much. Today was just Oh Em Gee!

CNY '11

2011-02-03T04:36:00.001+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to all my chinku frends here in Manipal and back home. Hope this year will be a prosperous one to all of you'll so that you'll can belanja me more often =D I miss the daging salai back home =(

This year, CNY celebration would be a little different as it is NOT a public holiday here - not only do we have class, but also for Group A - there is a PBL presentation session on Patho : Breast Cancer - quite a cibai way of starting the new year. Am quite prepared actually for this PBL. I missed the brainstorming so I really need to do super well tomorrow. I also have that annoying dental appointment tomorrow. Gaaaaah! I really hate going to the hospital! >( BDS 1 are leaving tomorrow for their vacation.. Happy holidays guys! Enjoy your CNY =) Gita Mithali Indukuri left today - didnt get a chance to catch her before she left. Goodbyes are always hard - but the most painful ones are the ones unsaid. Haiz...... 23 days moreeeee for me to go back =((( Its gonna be the hardest 23 days of my life. =((

Let simply

2011-02-02T15:37:00.000+08:00

A picture says a thousand words..

I just want to say : e.n.d!

fml

Return of the Cocci

2011-02-01T09:52:00.000+08:00

I can NOT believe this is happening all over again. Its as though the 5 day stay at the hospital was a complete waste of time and energy. And the timing is just way off - with PBL on Thursday, then Patho test on Sat, I also need Saturday to actually start my MSP Project.Blocks are in like 17 days OKAY.. wth?! seriously..

3 weeks ago - I was admitted for acute follicular tonsillitis. I was administered Cefrtiaxone I.V. TID =) yes, its quite obvious that the infection was that bad .Sometimes, tempes suka membesar-besarkan hal yang kecil, but this time, I doubt it was such a case as I have already suffered from this persisting sore throat for more than a month and 4 courses of antibiotics prior to admission did not help. A throat swab confirmed it was a case of Beta hemolytic Streptococcal infection. I saw the report in my file today while I was at a dental appointment. Which reminds me, I have to see the dentist on Thursday as well. ~~Shit.~~

Today, I finally looked at my tonsils with the aid of my retarded phone and a mirror only to find that I am back to square one. Uber frustrating I tell ya. Now the dillema arises : what to do? I really really dont want to see the ENT specialist again coz I know for sure she would push me in for a tonsillectomy which I really cant afford to undergo with the approaching blocks. But then, I cant leave my throat at the mercy of these tharuphillic cocci - there ARE major complications 0.0''. So even if I have to meet the ENT sp, it would have to be on either a Tuesday/Thursday/Saturday - all three days wouldn't be ideal for this week. gaaaahh! what a complicated load of crap over one's puny tonsils. ~~F.M.L~~! seriously! I guess I should just deal with it once I get home , in 25 days- but Medicare wouldn't be valid there. Despite the current predicament, I seriously cant help being kotte aite =P arghhhh.. stupid tonsils. Dahlah useless, wanna be a real pain pulak. The only relief out of all this is that it is not ~~candidiasis~~ =)

Its 3.00 am now, to make matters worse, I cant sleep and my internet line is just as stable as my emotional well being. =.= seriously, had to wait for half an hour just to post this...To sum it up, the only good thing in January '11 was the 30% discount in Baskin Robins =) What t doo? What to doo??

Dear Lord, please guide me through this crisis; keep me safe and healthy - In no one else but You, I trust. Thank you.

End of Jan '11

2011-01-31T02:10:00.000+08:00

So fast the first 31 days of the year has passed .. if only the next 25 days can pass just as fast, it would be great =) As optimistic as I was at the break of the new year that 2011 would actually be my year, reality has its way of being a real bitch. Though for some people, its been a real great one month and I hope there are many good things in store for them for the rest of the year =)

I'm really glad that the case study for our MSP project would be much easier to conduct than expected. Too easy in fact. I'm guessing a few hours this Saturday would be all we have to do but can never say for sure what the future has in store. * touch wood* Sexually Transmitted Disease =0

My tooth filling fell off.. I guess I will be making my 100th visit to KMC for the year within a month. pFFFt! I dont believe in bad timings and vastu etc but the series of unfortunate events have certainly questioned my disbelief.

My phone gets crappier and crappier as the days pass. First the charger, then the port, and now the ~~effing~~ battery besides the the fact tat the casing is literally falling apart. Haiz.. My BSNL connection sucks just as bad. Seriously, whats the deal?? my means of communication are just damned =(

I watched the "Social Network" today, being an avid user of the famous site - I have to say, its quite shameful that I have been ignorant about its history and how it surfaced in the cyber world. Anyways, safe to say this weekend was noted with enlightenment =) The founder was a real bitch though - I suppose some people are so taken up by their visions of greatness that a hollow heart and an empty soul is worth the compromise. It's always better to be thick-skinned : you achieve greater heights in life, somehow. Nothing good ever comes from being nice . =)

I really cant wait to get back home! but before that, I really have to slam my block 2!

rAndOm

2011-01-29T04:34:00.000+08:00

30 random ramblings of a hungry insomniac =)
Picking from the bits and pieces of what's left :

1. Pharmac is a real pain. period.

2. I cant believe I actually had food poisoning 0.0

3. Elisha made my day - she said the Golden words

4. DD isn't that bad in the 2nd block - i want more

5. Nicholas is a mangkuk- the best in Manipal

6. I finally got a copy of Tara Shanbag

7. Everybody , including Eling deserves a chance

8. I suddenly want nutella and strawberries..

9. Im going fishmax on sunday

10. I miss going for bhajans

11. I have developed a sudden affinity towards fire..

12. I have no credit right now , and I'm hungry

14. I don;t like number 13

15. my phone is just condemned

16. I think I used to have bipolar disorder - until I became just plain emo

17. I wish things were going the way they were supposed to be
18. I wonder why cant I sleep at 2am?
19. Ive had my blog for 4 years. Not bad=)
20. I realized I was strong enough to let go
21. Im turning 21 this year.
22. I miss school.
23. I believe Music is the best gift one presents himself
24. I wonder why the need in creating arthropods?
25. I am slowly loosing faith in karma =(
26. Somehow, I feel really stupid and used =S
27. I miss sleeping with a/c and rain =)
28. Ive been sober for 28 days.
29. I finally learned how to download via torrent =)
30. Im really homesick

a ray on shine

2011-01-21T00:12:00.000+08:00

What is ability without opportunity? And since opportunity only knocks once : I took it =P

I am well aware its not that great big of a deal but it's still something to make my presence in this place more significant =) finally one positive thing this year .. when God closes a door, He usually opens a window, this time , it was just a peephole =S

Anyways, life has taken this drastic turn of events - and its quite fascinating how reorganization has taken place so that all the pieces can still make something out of themselves =) I've had my share of fun - now's its time to grow up! Screw pharmac=.=

Back!

2011-01-18T02:01:00.000+08:00

Strange how we exaggerate the petty-petty stuff that turns out to be nothing at all, but overlook the little-little things that actually, in due time, take on a catastrophic course =) haiz...

Last Thursday, I woke up all gelabah-ing about how to put up the Ponggal celebration for the coming Saturday. Little did I know, the 12.30 appointment with the ENT specialist that faithful afternoon would get me confined, and render me dysfunctional in organizing the event. Funny how you start the day worrying about one problem, and you go to sleep that night regretting another. =.= Anyways, I was stuck in that bloody room for like 5 days. I was diagnosed with acute follicular tonsillitis after an array of tests varying from STDs to common bacterial infections - I know I didnt DO anything, but the fact that the test was done - my mind had to wonder and let paranoia get the better of me =P My fellow aspiring doctors were much of help in convincing me too. By the way, I missed the Pongal celebration and handed the responsibility over to Nadesh. That was that, now am out and getting back on track. Lots of pending emo-factors - but I just gotta shake the drama off and thicken thy skin. tomorow is gonna be a great day!

Dr. Phills!

2011-01-17T23:23:00.000+08:00

Below is Dr Phil's test . (Dr. Phil scored 55; he did this test on Oprah - she got a 38.) Some folks pay a lot of money to find this stuff out!

Read on, this is very interesting!

Don't be overly sensitive! The following is pretty accurate and it only takes 2 minutes. Take this test for yourself and send it to your friends. Ready??

Begin...

1. When do you feel your best?
a) in the morning
b) during the afternoon & and early evening
c) late at night

2. You usually walk. .
a) fairly fast, with long steps
b) fairly fast, with little steps
c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face
d) less fast, head down
e) very slowly

3. When talking to people you..
a) stand with your arms folded
b) have your hands clasped
c) have one or both your hands on your hips
d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking
e) play with your ear, ! touch your chin, or smooth your hair

4. When relaxing, you sit with...
a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side
b) your legs crossed
c) your legs stretched out or straight
d) one leg curled under you

5. When something really amuses you, you react with....
a) big appreciated laugh
b) a laugh, but not a loud one
c) a quiet chuckle
d) a sheepish smile

6. When you go to a party or social gathering you..
a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you
b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know
c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed

7.. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted.......
a) welcome the break
b) feel extremely irritated
c) vary between these two extremes

8. Which of the following colors do you like most?
a) Red or orange
b) black
c) yellow or light blue
d) green
e) dark blue or purple
f) white
g) brown or gray

9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are..
a) stretched out on your back
b) stretched out face down on your stomach
c) on your side, slightly curled
d) with your head on one arm
e) with your head under the covers

10. You often dream that you are...
a) falling
b) fighting or struggling
c) searching for something or somebody
d) flying or floating
e) you usually have dreamless sleep
f) your dreams are always pleasant

POINTS:
1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6
2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1
3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6
4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1
5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2
6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2
7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4
8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1
9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1
10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1

Now add up the total number of points.

OVER 60 POINTS : Others see you as someone they should 'handle with care.' You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant.. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like
you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you.

51 TO 60 POINTS : Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and
adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company
because of the excitement! you radiate.

41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head.. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone
who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust In your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.

21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would! really surprise them if you ever did something
impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.

UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with
anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. So me people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.

FML!

2011-01-11T00:29:00.000+08:00

I walked to the meadow

And carried the sky as I drew my path

As I got to the core, of green and yellow,

The trail divides and I come to a halt.

The lover relates beauty to the shining of the moon,

The child sings of the twinkling of a star,

A mother tells her child all too often

Of tales that end with happily ever after

To dwell in milk and honey,

I let go of the of the dark blue sky,

I covered my eyes, in the misty wave

Awaiting to taste What I thought I could have

The sky is bright when the sun is up,

The currents pull strong when the moon shines as whole,

Capable is the youth till age catches up

All is well that ends well - so there an end to be told

To wake up drowning in mist,

With your screams stuck in your throat,

I point at no one else to be at fault,

For there I was uneasy, hesitant but S.i.l.e.n.t

I bit the tongue that deluded my path

And reached for the sky but fell into a well,

With my hands outstretched I try to halt

The fall into the bottomless well

I find myself at the other side,

Where the grass were greener and the air was still,

I couldn't, I knew I shouldn't but deep inside,

I wanted to face the path tears once spilt

With much swelling, thy heart aches

With the regrets that fills it heavy

The more it fills, the emptier it gets

Making it harder to be on my way

I dare not face the road ahead,

with the past heavily seated on my shoulders

I sit down and within myself I searched

Gathering every bit of sanity and innocence

Seek out for the truth, I tell myself

Learn from the pot holes and go the distance,

be the star that shines its grace onto others

All in all, be one you love - for you are all you have =)

Time to close the windows and open the doors

2011-01-08T13:10:00.003+08:00

A week in the new year has passed. So far, so good =) I really have a strong feeling that 2011 is really MY year. This year I'll be turning 21 and I really have to give my life a proper makeover =.= - and this time, it's a must! This years theme : no crap, no emo =P

I guess it's time to close many chapters that have been haunting me over the past few years - like it or not, I have to forcefully put down a full stop at any cost. You cannot imagine how restless I am for not being able to be at home during a crisis, the helplessness is overwhelming. I hate the fact that I let myself sink in my own problems - I guess in trying to be a good person to others, I've been really bad to myself. I cant believe all this while I've been running away, now I'm so far away from the path I want to be on. Solitude is like thy biggest phobia - I guess that's why I tend to be a little too easy. But when the companion starts defying my principles, its time for a shift. This was more easily applicable back home , coz here, You're literally stuck with the same people in this metropolitan named Manipal.

*smacks forehead thinking : gosh, i AM so emo*

Moving on.. The Bangalore convention thing got canceled. pfft. Somehow, someway, I'll get my ticket to Bangalore. And at that time, I'll exchange it for one to GOA =p Goa.. *moment of ecstasy* haizz.. Second year is just emo-fied from students, to lecturers, to guards and lab assistants.. ish. Its fun watching.=) Just 12 weeks in 2nd year, and so much changes ady. wow - just wow.

On a more interesting side of life : I'm effing in love with iPhone 4! *period*

Also while Im in India there a few temples I really wish to visit before returning home for good : Dharmasthala, Mrdshwar, Gokarnath, Varanasi ( somehow la,), Kanchi, Madurai, Kashmir.

I'm becoming such a brat la.. so many things I want :x but its time i get something back right? so yea.=)

I miss home and I just cant wait to get back now that my tickets are in the process of getting confirmed. Just 8 weeks more okay! Time will fly!

WELCOME 2011!

2011-01-01T15:00:00.002+08:00

“New Year's eve is like every other night; there is no pause in the march of the universe, no breathless moment of silence among created things that the passage of another twelve months may be noted; and yet no man has quite the same thoughts this evening that come with the coming of darkness on other nights”

Happy new year everybody! 2011 is here - I seriously cant believe how fast 2010 got done and over with. Its been just like any other years -with the regular ups and downs but only , there were more extreme moments this time =) I think 2010 is really one heck of a year to note in life-line due to the many "first time to..."s -lol- Some of the many wonderful things about '10 are the wonderful outings, passing first year ie. no more anat!, G.O.A ( seriously...), being V.Pres for MSA =) Seriously, one year back, I never imagined myself to be the person I am now. I may have changed, but I guess its all part of growing up and adapting? As long as I hold on to my principles and believes, I guess - there are no regrets! A new year is a chance to be a better person - so.. my new year resolutions :

practice moderation - don't be too extreme (either hyper or hypo)
be emotionally independent - like seriously should have more faith in myself in leading my own life - i noe I'm a very capable person=)
cut down the paranoia factor and just chill!

I think that's enough challenges to work on for a year! New year is not starting really well - can foresee coming challenges and issues but I am pretty determined to make the best of 2011!

Happy new year everyone!

Blerghhh

2010-12-10T15:00:00.003+08:00

Oh my gawddd.. I think Im just at rock bottom - there's just too much to complain about, but too little time to stop and do so! The worse part I'm sick - as in actually physically sick after such a long time. ! my throat is so sakit, i can't even eat - I rejected Lays offered to me : so you just imagine the pain I'm going through. I am prostulating an hypothesis that this is the result of an improper dental procedure I went for earlier this week. BODOH TUKANG GIGI TEMPEK!! Next would be my ever so tight budget, Really wish I would be receiving some cash back home soon but there is the guilt of asking for more. Of all the times to be sick and broke , it had to be during LEGENDA 2010 & blocks! WAT THE HELL!! I am liking what i learn in 2nd year though - esp patho and micro, though micro can be such a pain in the arse.
Moving on to the happier side of life : *cricket sounds* ..
shit..
Anyways, enough about me. I just heard that another suicide case has occurred in Manipal. I really cant believe how much of a loser / coward and selfish a person can get to end his/her own life just like that. Do they not think of their parents and everyone back home? What did they do to deserve this predicament. Life , is so fragile, and hear are some fools who just waste theirs just like that. Do they really think by putting an end to their life, their problems are solved?? According to my believes, the soul of a person who has committed suicide restlessly roams this Earth for a hundred human years - suffering from the pain that caused his death every single day.
Recently, a brother of a friend ( more like friend's friend) had tragically passed away in an unfortunate event at the beach. Being and elder brother myself, I cant and I refuse to imagine myself in those shoes. For the rest of your life, there will always be something missing after such mishaps. As a third person, I can only pray for soul to be at peace, and for the family to be strong and move on. But to be directly affected, I dont think anything anybody says can console you. I guess it's just something you have to accept at your own pace and manner. Its scary how malang tidak berbau.
On a totally different note, people relli should maintain their drama at therapeutical doses.. dont'la so over as to bang someone in public on facebook with emo status. yes, you didn't mention names, but I myself can figure out who it is you're speaking about, Im sure so can the many others in the Manipal circle can too. This habbit is becoming contagious as its gaining popularity as time passes. The only solutions to drama, based on my experiences, are integrity and transparency =)
On a lighter side of life, I get to be SANTA for this years Christmas caroling! and also, Dinesh Gopalan Nair claims I'm the song bird of manipal. haizz.. =)
I guess that's about the ramblings and rantings for now - Ananthnaraynan awaits my return! I wonder how block 1 is gonna be? lol. Have a great day people, dont be naughty - Santa is coming!! =P

penultimate week of BLOCK1(2)

2010-12-05T17:09:00.012+08:00

TEN weeks in 2nd year have flown just like that.. Its been a really great start to Stage 2! I've been soo busy that I really couldnt update my blog as frequently as I wished to.

Week 1 : Mysore -Ooty

Week 2 : Thy Birthday =)

Week 3 : Indian Orientation for batch 27

Seriously, am privileged to be in Batch 25

Week 4 : Random Saturday Night

Week 5 : Potpourri

Week 6 : GOA!

I just cant wait for our next trip to goa! Its just too much fun - even the few moments I can still remember today =) Goa was simply just GOA!

Week 7 : -DIWALI-

Week 8 :-drama-
How I wish I could go back in time and reverse the damage but as reality would have it, every cloud has its silver lining
Week 9 : -EM0-

Week10 : MMMC XIII ANNUAL DAY -2010

And just to sum it up :

And in this ten weeks also, I've actually learnt a lot :

Everyone makes mistakes - everyone is ENTITLED to make mistakes, you have to accept it, and make your way through
You are not always be the person you imagined yourself to be, but that's no reason for you to stop trying
Be careful with your wishes, it may just come true -and you may have to compromise the more important stuff in life
Time heals the greatest of all wounds- give time, time to take its course
Appreciate all that you have, more so since life, by itself, is so friggin fragile
Manipa, is truly a home away from home =)
I have to work on my paranoia

That's all for now folks!

P/S : I so hate this writer's block I get after weeks of not rambling.. grrr =.=

Navarathri

2010-10-13T03:19:00.009+08:00

Salutations to She who is engaged in the Five forms of duties
who Creates in the form of the Four-Faced Brahma,
protecs the Universe in the form of Govinda;
as the form Rudra to destroy ;
Iswara to cause complete disappearance by withdrawing into herself and
as Samba Sadashiva to bestow endless grace upon Her Devotees...
Salutations to She who resides The Sri Chakra,
Who is the Great Beauty of the Three worlds,
who is served by wealth ( Lakshmy) and Knowledge ( Saraswathy)
who is Shiva and the unification of Shiva and Shakti,
Salutations to Lalithambika, the approachable mother
- Sri Lalitha Sahasranamam

Its Navarathri again - the nine holy nights dedicated to the Goddess in Hinduism, usually held end of September of early October. The roots for festival is rather vague as the origin varies from various sources ranging from the multitudes of puranas to folk-tales that has been carried from generation to generation. However, the common rule that applies generally to all versions is the battle of the Divine Mother against evil and its manifestations. All in all, the nine days festival resembles the epitome of devotion towards Shakti.

Na Sivena Vinaadevi Devyaaca Na Vinaa Shiva; Na tayor antaram chasti Chandra Chandrikayo Riva

There is no Shiva without Shakti as there is no Shakti without Shiva, There is no distinction between them just as the moon and her shining - Shiva Purana

Being A devotee of Amman for as long as I can remember, I simply love this festival compared to any other through out the year. In my 20 years , many a times I have experienced my Mother's grace, and a life time of gratitude is not long enough for all the blessings she has bestowed upon me. I am very aware of my short comings( and emotional turbulence) but I rest assured that I am ver well taken care off , especially now when I am away from home, by the One who truly accepts me for myself. Just like everyone else, I have my vices- the hunger for the world which can never can satisfied. I percieve this time of the year to be the best in strengthening oneself mentally and spiritually.

" .. If that lofty object drives the desciple in his devotion and discipline, the Divine Mother even overlooks minor lapses in the Sadhana and leads him to higher status just as a loving mother leads Her dear but erring child along the right path - This is the essence of worship oF Shakti..." - Samayamata

We can't totally lead a life devoid of trials and temptations and sure as heck, we cant all be saints to conquer them just like that. So has Lord Krishna persuaded us to constantly think of Him as per the Bhagavad Gita:

" Only the ignorant speak of devotional service ad being different from the analytical study of the material world.. The Supreme Personality of Godhead Said: Those who fix their minds on My personal form and are a;ways engaged in worshiping Me with great faith are considered by Me to be most perfect"

Navarathri is simply an opportunity for one to deepen his faith and expand his love for God. Having said so, those observing the festival limits themselves from enjoying worldly pleasures and surrender themselves to the bliss of divinity. It is a time to steady the mind on Sathyam (Truth) and Shivam ( God) as the Ultimate Reality. Life in this world itself is the greatest illusion that blinds us from our purpose and fate - we are so tied down to the world that we just cant move up and surrender to His Holiness. Also, one's belief and faith is entirely a one-on-one relationship between oneself the God, it is not to be judged or influenced by others and we are all a bunch of equally imperfect variety.

Everything in this world is ephemeral, transitory; it is here today, but it may not be here tomorrow. So, if you desire for something, seek the Lord, who has no decline. Instead, if you crave for progeny, wealth and all comforts, you will suffer untold misery when you are called upon to leave everything and depart. At that moment, you would lament, “Oh, did I love so deep that I may weep so loud?” In this transitory life, joy and pain are also perforce transitory. There is nothing here fit to be worshipped as eternal. So, to get immersed in this search for the evanescent and to forget the Supreme and the Everlasting is indeed unbecoming of man.
~ Sathya Sai Baba

May This Navarathri Bring Happiness and Peace to you and Your Loved Ones =) Have a great day!

the first rain

2010-10-11T01:54:00.002+08:00

Its been a long while since I last logged onto my blog, what more to actually update it. I guess, I'm just not as ideal as I used to be back in my pre-medic days =P but I simply can't do without my bloggie =) Now that I'm back, hopefully I stay so! A lot, as in A L.O.T has happened since June 21!

First Things First! I made it through 1ST YEAR I.E: no more F**King ANATOMY and its dreadful package, the stench of formalin, the cadaverous texture, V/K's pleasant statements, HISTO SLIDES are all in the past! So far, second year has been okay but the winds have whispered getting through 1st year is like out of the pan, into the fire. Bring it on la! New lecturers, new people, new dramas - great way to kick start the new year!

Ive been here two weeks, starting the 3rd tomorrow. Last weekend had a great trip to Mysore, I swear its the best place to get in touch with the Indian heritage, the palace was beyosome! I was actually on a frantic sandalwood-mania the one day I spent there, tempe-ish much but I just love it!! We also visited Ooty along the way, but there's relly nothing much to say about it besides the cool Cameron Highlands-like feeling.

The Indian Orientation for batch 27 by 25 was held yesterday, but I think that deserves an entire post dedicated to it so I'll skip that part. Navarathri is going on now and I so miss the bhajans back home!! I miss the people, the temple, the prasadam =) but I'll just have to deal with it... Really hating this though, even my Birthday I had to celebrate away from home, but thanks to Dinesh and the rest, it wasnt all that bad =P (Actually it was the alcohol that made it kinda great, but some people will emo if they aren't acknowledged) Thanx to Mun Xiew, Vithya , Sathya , Harpreet and o'course the Mallu for the surprise on the eve. lol.

Classes again tomorow, lucky it only begins at 9. I can slowly drag myself out of bed =D Signing off now, hope to be back soon

Pandora's Box

2010-06-21T14:44:00.010+08:00

If Pandora weren't supposed to open the box, why give it to her?
If she weren't to release all evils of the world, why contain them in that box?
If Adam and Eve weren't to eat of of tree of knowledge, why have it in the first place?

Gluttony Anger Lust Sloth Pride Envy Greed

The Supreme Being is perfect in every way , as to err is only human and human alone; And so to postulate the basis of the forbidden, it was His intention to impart the knowledge of good and evil to Men, granting them the liberty to choose their own path in earthly life and the choice of reuniting with Him. A school of thought suggests that these negative elements are essential for the survival of mankind (and beast)- within physiological limits =P. Only Man is gifted with a conscience to draw the limits. It all comes down to a balance between nurturing strength of the soul and enjoying the earthly pleasures of life - a balance once disrupted, leads to corruption of individuals and society. In this Dark Age ( Kali Yug), corruption has its roots penetrating deep into the bewildered minds of the ignorant. Just because it's normal and accepted, doesn't make it right - listen to your conscience and yOu are guaranteed a soundful sleep at the end of the day.You may be only One Person against the world, but it only takes one candle to lit an entire room.

And there's always H.O.P.E. - the one thing Pandora saved , and the best ...

Cheers =P

Thou shant dig thy grave

2010-06-17T23:56:00.004+08:00

Everything seems to be going wrong lah - and I relli cannot handle the messiness! And I memang have myself to be blamed for being so mengada-ish. I can't go on BY the book all the time, but everytime I deviate even slightly *BAM* drama+tension = new blog post =P
Sequence of emotionally scarring events :
terrible fall on the stairs down to my room - even till now, my kaki so bengkak and sakit!

" dO I LooK like I care??"
" no, there's no need for such thing, I think we covered everything already..."
" Is he refering to the textbook?"
"Bit*h..."

And today, was when I made THE wrong move and invited the the highest degree of tension to myself in the past two blocks - cabut-ing dissection =.= I really know THAT it IS ENTIRELY MY FAULT , but i just h.a.t.e dissections - especially the revisions on Thursdays. Its bad enough I'm spending two hours a day , 5 days a week with lifeless people in the dissection hall but to spend the two hours without actually learning anything isreaally demotivating- at least if someone is teaching for an hour, it wud be tolerable. Moreover, last night, I only slept like after 4am, but I still dragged myself to class under the rain only for the 100% attendance.haizz... so unnecessary!
Following this drama, I was told that donating blood would get me 3 hours free attendance - even as I wrote this sentence, my stomach actually shrunk as I wondered how low would I stoop? In the previous semester, I donated blood for no reason at all , and I really felt good about it. And now, to do the same , just for my own benefit, really questions the direction of my moral compass.. Its the kind of situation where it isn't wrong, but it's just NOT right at all.. Dillema-ish, but desperate times call upon for desperate measures.. and I have been struggling to maintain the 100% throughout the year, even in the sinfully boring ppd classes, or even other such dissection classes and even when I was totally hungover =P but STILL - blood donation to justify my juvenile act? someone's life may actually depend on this act of hypocrisy haizzz ... the rain is simply exaggerating the emo factor.

-5 minutes break-

2010-06-16T04:26:00.004+08:00

Four friends, who hadn't seen each other in 30 years, reunited at a party
After several drinks, one of the men had to use the rest room.
Those who remained talked about their kids.

The first guy said, 'My son is my pride and joy.He started working at a successful company at the bottom of the barrel.
He studied Economics
and Business Administration and soon began to climb the corporate ladder and now he's the president of the company. He became so rich that he gave his best friend a top of the line Mercedes for his birthday.'

The second guy said, 'Darn, that's terrific! My son is also my pride and joy. He started working for a big airline, then went to flight school to become a pilot. Eventually he became a partner in the company, where he owns the majority of its assets He's so rich that he gave his best
friend a brand new jet for his birthday.'

The third man said: 'Well, that's terrific! My son studied in the best universities and became an engineer. Then he started his own construction company and is now a multimillionaire. He also gave away something very nice and expensive to his best friend for his
birthday: A 30,000 square foot mansion.'

The three friends congratulated each other just as the fourth returned from the restroom and asked: 'What are all the congratulations for?'

One of the three said: 'We were talking about the pride we feel for the successes of our sons. .What about your son?'
The fourth man replied: 'My son is gay and makes a living dancing as a stripper at a nightclub.'
The three friends said: 'What a shame... what a disappointment.'

The fourth man replied: 'No, I'm not ashamed. He's my son and I love him.
And he hasn't done too bad either. His birthday was two weeks ago, and he received a beautiful 30,000 square foot mansion, a brand new jet and a top of the line Mercedes from his three boyfriends.'
MORAL : Dont judge others when you are blissfully ignorant of your own flaws!

Moving on .....

To avoid swine flu it’s recommended you:

Eat right! Make sure you get your daily dose of fruit and veggies. Take your vitamins and bump up your vitamin C.

Get plenty of exercise because it builds your immune system. Walk for at least an hour a day, go for a swim, take the stairs instead of the lift, etc.

Wash your hands often. If you can’t, keep a bottle of antibacterial stuff around.

Get lots of fresh air. Open doors & windows whenever possible.

Try to eliminate as much stress from your life as you can.

Get plenty of rest.

Take the doctor’s approach.

Think about it… When you go for a flu jab, what do they do first? They Clean your arm with alcohol… Why? Because Alcohol KILLS GERMS.

So…….

I walk to the pub. (exercise)
I put lime in my vodka…(fruit)
Celery in my Bloody Mary (veggies)
Drink outdoors on the patio..(fresh air)
Tell rude jokes and laugh….(eliminate stress)
Then I pass out. (rest)

The way I see it…

If you keep your alcohol levels up, flu germs can’t get you!

As my grandmother always said,

‘A shot in the glass is better than one in the arse!’

Its raining!

2010-06-12T16:48:00.004+08:00

The rains have finally arrived at Manipal and I'm loving this phase of transition especially after bearing the penetrating heat rays, daily, for 3 months now, yes, the circle of life is spining =P Yesterday, as I was walking to temple, I played this song on my mobile and the experience was indescribable - the music, the tone, the cold wind blowing below thy umbrella in the rain... it was a magical moment =P

Anyways, nothing else seem to be going right, so I just better shut up=P I just hope its just a phase coinciding with the approaching UNIs. From where I stand, it looks as though things are going exactly the way its suppose to for (almost) everyone else except me, yea, the grass always seems to be greener on the other side - but what if it's prolly the actually just as green, then I would be like one of these two :

On a more entertaining note, my phone rang in the most membosan-ing class today
Pin drop silence + loud message alert tone + front row seat = infinite humiliation!!!
shiit!! thanks Nicholas!
I cant believe we'll be having classes up to 12.30pm for the rest of 4th block! It's so difficult to get up from bed now that the mornings are sooo cold and cozy, and knowing u have to wake up to half-day long lectures makes it worse.. haizzz... =.="
anyways, have to settle my debt with my bed now! shan't delay no more with this online web-logging!

Happy MONSOON!!! and happy world cup-ing!!!

T-MAN

One step at a time =P

2010-06-10T02:28:00.006+08:00

I know it's been a while AGAIN since I last wrote here but second sem has been really busy! And now that block 4 has finally arrived, phobia of UNIS is getting intense =S Block 4 is quite challenging la, and procastination is a big no - no.. the load is simply too much to handle =S but I cant deny, the subjects are more interesting, even NEUROANATOMY , somehow =.=" ( maybe Sandhya's influence, =P)
Anyways, moving on to the lighter / HIGHer side of life, last week was really err.. eventful?? lolx I think I MAY have tried too many things too fast =P though I found it FUN, others found it FUNNY!

"one week ago but yet we can still think about it and laugh ;) that's the magic behind T-man :p"
- dipetik dari facebook.com , comment by a newly made friend

I'm being so life-lessly free I know, but I was so busy sticking my nose in thy books the whole day and my initial plan to "chill out" for the evening got canceled =( so I ended up here instead, squeezing my cerebral cortex to keep this site alive.

To break the monotony of this post ( or when I ran out of stuff to write) ....

Wilkin's bdayy at Lake View

Outings with Dinesh Nair's outstation friend, Kohila and Sai

Spent three super fun days with Kohila, didnt get that much time to hang out with Sai ( and was emo when I did =( )

And today is P. Yugendra's bday, and Ive been told my one and half besties back home celebrated at Sunway. sighzz... shall use this as another reason to emo about the distance from home =P Its funny how small matters were SMALL matters once upon a time, but now, it means way much more though its prolly still something small.

That's all lah for now... Till next time =)

Cheers!

Of Insomnia and Chemistry

2010-05-30T13:10:00.002+08:00

Its a sunday, so I though of updating my page =) Two WEEKS in block four is over and I'm still sesat in anat =(( Block 3 results are out, very typical how I performed. Could have done better in physio, and even anat but the latter is such a life-sucking subject so I excused myself for not doing that well in it =P I think I took block 3 too easy lah.. "Pride comes before a fall - and vice versa*"

* terms and conditions applied

I learned my lesson - dont be so mengada and leave everything for last minute =( I'm starting block four with way more enthusiasm =D MUST do well in block 4! UNIS! argghh!!

Anyways, moving on to the other sideS of life:
Insomnia is ruining me.. Barely get 3 proper hours of sleep per day =.=" Night sleep after 3 /4 am ni, then wake up by 7am soo groggily, struggle to stay awake during class (esp during dissections ), come back, force myself not to sleep throughout the day and still cant sleep at night =@!! I used to blame the WorldWideWeb and mukabuku, but recent experiments proved me wrong =S

Dramaaa.. the sole entertainment in Manipal, severely exaggerated to a point of no return. Dun lah let childish ego lead ur life. Kononnya I'm emolah, mengata orang dia yang lebih =P

Hm... Physio and Biochem teachers are so philosophical.. and cant blame them, they have their grounds in relating bio science to principles of life =P We got madam #Chandrika# again this block - she reallly really wants us to master biochem to the core and she helps in every way , but not many on our part are responding to her call =S

OMG.. Nothing much happens in my life anymoree! I better be cool-er in 2nd year laaa.. ishh..

D-BLOCK!

2010-05-21T23:17:00.002+08:00

First week of block 4 is over ! OMG! SO faaast 1st year gonna be over. 56 days to block 4, 84 days to UNIS. OMG. So fast block 3 started and finished... sighzz.. it was really a emo and dramatic block. Pffttt! Block 3 exams were relatively okay =) but I guess I took anat a bit too easy. Spotters was bad. Hmm.. haven't updated in 3 weeks0.O Nothing much to update oso.. hehe.. lost the will to blog laaa...Planing to go mangalore this weeked, see how that turns up.. sighzz

T--MAN Returns =P

2010-05-01T21:26:00.014+08:00

AFTER 8 weeks of being deprived of the net, I finally gained the freedom to full access to the world wide web =))) and now I cant log off
Anyways, got soo ooo much to update, practically whole of Block 3 =S

To begin with, the batch 26 orientation that we conducted two after our return. It was uber. Wilkin, Nicholas and Karthik did a great video! - i t was great mainly coz I was fearured in it =P nyehehe. I sang bdw , Hey There Delilah =) The Chorus speaking conducted was really reat, it summarized the great things we had in Manipal =)

hey there DELILAH

- a small sketch -

Next, would be the trip to Shringeri! It really is a beautiful temple and I really wanna go again =)

Our class also organized a BBQ!! =) Since Im enlightening, I had to hold the lamp =P

After that would be UTSAV, I didnt get invloved directly but I did help out oKAAY

Then, would be my new home in Manipal =) I reaally love it - sampai had to decline Dinesh's request to be his immediate neighbor. I moved in on the 28th of March. woow.. so fast time flew in block three!

I even had a small hosewarming =)

Tamil New Year Celebration was next. In UmaMaheshwara temple, Shivapaady =) We had bhajans and thevarams , and o'course MAKANs...I was fed like a pig ,I swear I was so numb/high until I just couldn't be get my bearings straight=S

After Tamil New Year, were the Noth-South games and Iwas in charge of Futsal. I made a mess in getting the courts done the first week =( but luckily the games went smooth =) The closing ceremony for North South games were like two days ago =)

Yesterday , there was the Kite flying event for th eHemophillia society but sadly I had to miss it as I had other commitments! Arghh! It reaaaly looked like fun =(

Now ALL is left is Spotters next week and Blocks after tat! "WOOHOO!" RITE..
Today is Dr. Ullas Kamath's Birthday. Sadly yesterday was his last class for my batch in biochem =( All good things have to come to an end - why? Coz thats the rule =(

I remember my first personal encounter with Dr. Ullas, it was the first biochem practical and we were doing the Benedict's test. We were suppose to heat the solution for 2 minutes, BUT i didn't have a watch. So I didn't bother much about the time ( even if I had a watch). Just then, Dr. Ullas came from behind and ask me "HOW are u taking the time? UR SUPPOSE to heat it for two minutes, no? What's your name?" He looked at my nametag and left.. PUCATEDDD =.="

In between all these events, there were class tests, birthdays!, pucating moments, DRAAAMAAA!, AND a lot of day-to-day humor and laughs =)
I'm so glad I finally have internet =)))

Since I've got internet, Ive been MSN-ing alot with my sister at home =) I miss herr soo much! I miss my brother oso =( At least another 17 weeks left .. sighzz

<3 style="text-align: left;">That's al the updates for now. might not blog much for the next two weeks as blocks are coming up =) All the best to B25!

* credits to Mr. Nicholas Heng, Wilkin and Mun Xiew for the pics =P pls dont sue me

2010-03-18T10:04:00.001+08:00

2 weeks in manipal, and still x internet. So, i'd just have to keep my blog alive via mobile:( so leceh, but wat to do??? Block 3 so far has been okay, we have some REALY REALY cool lecturers ie. Dr. Sateesha Nayak, DR. Ullas Kamath n Dr. Maya (again:p) , Dr. Reem ( whose class is super freaking intense).. Block 3 stuff is quite fun actually. The weather is friggin hott, And my room doesn't really help... Cant wait 2 move out!
Now for the interesting stuff, our junior batch had arrived at manipal and we had the informal orientation yesterday:) I got involved:p pics by the photographers of the batch to be uploaded soon. Also, I went to Sringeri last sunday with shantini, dinesh nair and harpreet. It realy is a beautiful temple.
Not much else to update for now, got also, I malas wana type on my hp:(

last day at home=(

2010-03-05T16:30:00.002+08:00

Shudnt it be easier to leave home for the second time compared to the first?? =S emotions swelling up within =( sighhzz... ill be back in august lah, thats quite soon actually. I dont think I'll be able to blog for , at least, the next two weeks.. so this is the last post for now. Please come back in a week or two for updates, there wud be plenty once I land in Manipal =)
Flight at 10, leaving home at 6.30 =(((((

2 days to goo!

2010-03-03T10:52:00.002+08:00

I seriously cant believe how the hell the past three and a half weeks just flew.. and now I'm left with another two days before I leave my tanah air "tercinta" again...... I'll only be here for like 2 out of 12 months of the year.. thats like 1/6th of the year, which isn't too bad, I should say. Anyways.. I did my shopping like in 3 hours xp.. just waiting to go and get it over with....

On a more tragic note, I was denied the opportunity to enjoy the sweet creaamy flesh of the The Malaysian Identity, the durian.. gahh!! No fair! A t least I got loaded up with the true Chinese food, unlike the pseudo ones in Manipal flooded with capsicum. =)

I'm having a Maggi with telur for breakfast. i NEED to have a Zinger burger today or tomorrow, NEED.. Other stuff I need: MOVIES! kacang! maybe a electric jug ( maybe).. er.. so frustrating to plan for an exit from home lah.. Just wanna get it done and over with. Pfftt.. I'll be back in late August sometime around Merdeka..

On a totally random note, facebook chat is lame =( Nothing else for now lah.

Unfair!

2010-03-01T10:14:00.002+08:00

Life is soo bloody unfair! And just when you get used to the degree of unjust ur putting up with, BAM! something happens that brings this "unfairness" to a Whole new level and you go back to the drawing board with "LiFE IS SO UNFAIR!" S0me of the many sighs heard when such a situation arises are " What did I/they/he/she/it do to deserve this?" "why me?" "why does it have to be this way?" "Why is God so cruel?" ahh yes, the blame (ignorantly) goes back to the Almighty. It's as though the world revolves around the single most obnoxious paradox " no good deed goes unpunished". But if we observe in a broader spectra, life is just getting back in to balance. We may not realize it as we're too ignorant - we think of here and now, we think WE are the do-ers, the makers. ( as quoted in the Bhagavad Gita). Its very difficult to receive the truth that karma is just playing its role. This is when anger and spite seeps in and we make things messier for ourselves. There are a lot of people I know in depression as things didnt go as "planned" and it is so difficult to explain and make them understand, for their own good. Life may not be fair, but that does not give us the right to be unjust to others. Surrender to the Lord, and he will guide you to better understanding, and to better times.

Cheers=)

To pass the time...

2010-03-01T01:04:00.003+08:00

In exactly a week from now, I would be preparing to go to bed for class the next day. Pfftt.. Time flies so fast, I cant believe that I'm actually in med school ady, and that I'm thru with one semester. I'm all growing up =S I miss my days in Form 6, I miss Maths =P. I miss Upper 6 Five. I miss recess time. I miss being free from 2-5pm. But there's no turning back, embrace the present=) One month break flew too fast. I did not see that coming. But I really saw a lot of people lah in this one month- mostly pelik ones, but still people. I have not touched my books at all - I'm so gonna get screwed for that. I hope the next semester would be more fun now that I know most of my batchmates ady but there's the drama factor to be aware of. Pfftt.... I need the internet line in my room once I go back. I just dont care, I'm gonna get it. Had I not neglected my blog for a month or so, I wouldn't have been facing this (blogger's) block the past two weeks =)Thats all the random rambling for the moment.. and for laughs :

“The things you want are always possible; it is just that the way to get them is not always apparent. The only real obstacle in your path to a fulfilling life is you, and that can be a considerable obstacle because you carry the baggage of insecurities and past experience.”

and remember:
IF the world DIDN'T SUCK, we would be floating about ...

Have a great day yea!

1 week to go!

2010-02-27T13:33:00.002+08:00

SO fast the past three weeks just flew.. and just a week left at home =S And when we're back there, we have to be getting ready for our UNIs.. gosh.. so fast lah the one year will fly..
anyways, the past three weeks were not that "happening".. it was dramatic, but not happening.. I really lost interest in so many thins ady, I just dont care anymore =P .. Moving on, I still havent started my shopping yet ( and I still dont care about it too). I dont havemuch to buy, maybe some clothes, a bit of this and that. Prolly will do it by Wednesday. I have tasted all the Malaysian food I've wanted, but food is much of a big thing once I'm there. I get by with "your choice" and nandhini's store. I miss people and stuff from manipal. Nothing much to blog lah, coz nothing much happening oso. One week left.. ARRGHHH!!

=.=

2010-02-23T09:24:00.005+08:00

I'm just really broken inside. MY life SUCKS to the MAX!!! I cant imagine how it cud get any worse ( but it will, as a "pleasant surprise" pfftt..) I really hate being invisible, I mean, u WUD think I'm too big to be invisible, but noooooOOOooo.. and IF I'm not invisible, I'm being judged/"evaluated".. eee.. so annoying.. It seems that whenever I try to be helpful, I'm just making a loophole for people to cari pasal with me =( and then there's the feeling of "being needed but never wanted".. I may not be that capable nor presentable, but I'm always available =). I cant tell this to anyone else, so I have to pour it out hear on my bloggie. Now I have to go back , put on a fake smile and pretend that evrything is going great... Maybe, if I put on this mask long enough, it will become my face =S

( click on the pics to enlarge )

Thank You for dropping by today! God Bless!

Busy Busy Emo Emo

2010-02-22T01:29:00.009+08:00

Yesterday was my mums Birthday and I was busy like crazy from the day before with the shopping and the cleaning ( aquariums =P). I baked a cake again - this is the only birthday in my family that I can actually bake a cake so I took my annual opportunity!

We went to Kajang for dinner, celebrated her Birthday with my dad's sisters. It was fun lah, had dinner at a Chinese restaurant. Strangely, I didn't miss much Chinese food in Manipal lah, but I really really missed Chicken Curry and Curds =( anyways, mooving on, I'm sure my mum had a great birthday...

I really missed my mum when I was in Manipal - she is like my best friend =) Oh.. I return to Manipal in like 2 weeks time@#$%^&* * mixed emotions* Have a lot of shopping for myself to do - something I really REALLY hate doing =Q

I'm really annoyed by a lot of people, but I just cant run away from them.. Why are they so god-damn-RETARDED!?? get a life! Grow up! Step outside your bubble and see the MORON you truly are! So much dramalah, too much drama actually and so little time left.. sighz...
Im really BLAH about most stuff ady lah-immune to the idiocy and hypocrisy society offers... PRRRFFTT!

I'm so absorbed in my music lah these days , it takes my mind away from the annoying petty stuff.. Just gonna be low profile until everything really steady ady ( if it ever gets steady ever again =() I feel like (big) oil droplet in a jar of water-just dont mix that well lah with my surroundings =P I'd rather keep to myself. Somehow I feel like I have to face everything alone.Every setback is a step closer to God.. I have nowhere else to turn to =)

I just dont blend in =(

On a brighter more entertaining note, I took a quiz on facebook and it WAS FREAKISHLY TRUE! I'm not trying to be poyo / perasan about anything, but people HAVE HAD told me some of these stuffs.. take the quiz! its was fun!

sighhzzz.......... ............ still emo ......

T-man Out!
NiteZ!

UPDATED

2010-02-19T13:31:00.004+08:00

I updated my "life" back home... my playlist, my blogie, "pimped" my car a lil bit =P..
I feel so ketinggalan lah .. I missed ou on so many new "perkembanganS and all.. lol.
Anyways, today is kinda boring lah thats why I actually took the time to download and upload stuff all.. I NEED to get an external hard=drive before I return to Manipal..
And as usual, whenever I lack he inspiration to blog, I steal from the "mail and suff" dept... =P

If you have sex with a prostitute against her will, is it considered rape or shoplifting?

How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered?

Why do you have to "put your two cents in"... But it's only a "penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to?

Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see you naked anyway..

Why is "bra" singular and "panties" plural?

Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?

Why do they call it an asteroid when it's outside the hemisphere, but call it a hemorrhoid when it's in your butt?

People are very intuitive.. and google has the answer for practically EVERYTHING!

cheers!

Maha Shivarathri

2010-02-19T11:22:00.004+08:00

Okay, this post is exactly a week late coz Shivarathri was on last Friday.. yea.. but I still wanna acknowledge the festival on my blog, "better late than never, eh?"
Wikipedia says :
"Maha Shivratri or Maha Sivaratri or Shivaratri or Sivaratri (Night of Shiva or "Great Night of Shiva") is a festival celebrated every year on the 13th night/14th day in the Krishna Paksha (waning moon) of the month of Maagha in the Hindu Calendar (that is, the night before and day of the new moon).

It is said to be the night Lord Shiva and his wife, Goddess Parvathi were united in holy matrimony - also claimed as Lord Shiva's favourite day of the year.
It is celebrated by singing and dancing the songs of the Lord, or by meditating and chanting His name throughout the entire night ( yes, no sleeping at night). The idea was to surrender yourself fully to the Lord on this special night.

This year, for the for the first time in my life I took part in this festival. It was really an awesome experience - indescribable, in fact, to feel the presence of Lord so strong. I was lucky enough to be having my first semester break to return home for his celebration =) I didn't get much sleep the next day but caught up with my sleep the night after.
That's about all the enlightenment for now people =p.. Till next time

When Life hands you Lemons..

2010-02-16T16:25:00.003+08:00

SQUEEZE THEM INTO THE NEAREST B@$3rd's eye

POST CNY

2010-02-16T15:54:00.002+08:00

I haven't fully resumed by "uber"ness back home.. but more less back to my daily routine as in the days before Manipal =P I do the dishes.. and also the cleaning. I read a Sidney Sheldon book, Master of the Game , it was entertaining. Today I made Rasem, it turned out very well =) I've been driving ppl of the house around , I reaaaally love to drive especially in Seremban where traffic jams are rarely ever a problem=) I miss my car. Oh bdw, my car has been "healed" . It was an exhausting and perky experience, but at least its done and over. CNY was okei lah.. I had steamboat last night with family after an Old Town White Coffee outing with my members=P I rreaaally missed them.. and I'm gonna miss them more once I leave this March. Valentines day was oo lala.. I got a card, but I lost it . I left in Old Town White Coffee =( I hope she dont mind.. its the though that counts=) What else.. what else...
Nothing else lah to update for now.. Will write up stuff when interesting things come across my path =P Till then, have a great day ppl!

Prayer for a loved one

2010-02-11T11:34:00.002+08:00

I just got to know that a close associate of mine is suffering from pulmonary congestion, leading to cardiac failure. The only hope we are left with is whole blood transfusion. They say she has very high chances of recovery but lets pray for a speedy recovery for my Persona =( She is still in her prime..

Brotherly Love =')

2010-02-10T01:03:00.002+08:00

I just got back from a midnight drive to the new KFC branch in Seremban.. it was ubersome.. but more importantly, the four siblings had their night out =P

Thank You, God, for this wonderful Gift..

5 months in 10 minutes =P

2010-02-08T15:54:00.003+08:00

Manipal was awesomelah, in a way, boring but awesome at the same time. Well, I couldn't expect it to be as Uber as tanah air ku so I just had to make the best of it =) It isn't really that heard to please me, all I need are : yummy food , internet and a reason to wake up every morning to face the day. FOOD is average lah, though I suffered alternately from constipation and diarrhea=( I miss Your Choice ... The lecturers were awesome especially the Biochem dept. They are like a group of super intelligent super friendly people walking the Earth. Anat and Physio dept had some really cool lecturers as well, Mr. Sudarshan. V.K! =p, ""JAYPREE" ... awesome max =) Entertainment is restricted much in Manipal lah - especially for me =( Limited to internet ( which I was deprived off in the last one month) and also drama xp. Manipal is like drama central ... all kinds of pelik people wil come in contact with you. My personal advice " Dont get too close to someone too fast, coz the other person may let that happen only to gain something from you " But on the whole, got lotsa kewl people in my batch lah.. I miss theemm =( I love the temples there esp Shivapaadi temple, I miss the bhajans every Friday nights- they were awesome. I finally lead a song on the last Friday I was there. Hm... I'm so glad to be away from ANATOMY and everything related to it! Anatomy sux lah.. and so does the ppl who do well in it.. That's all lah I guess.. Still in the dry phase of blogging ='( I'm sorry I lost touch :'""(

AM BAAACKKK!!!!

2010-02-07T15:42:00.003+08:00

After a month plus away, I'm finally back at home and also online! =P I do miss Manipal but I really need a break from it at the same time =)
Yesterday arrived KLIA at 7.30, came back and had a nicee looooong sleeep. Didnt sleep well the week before due to exams and packing =S Had chinese food the first time in months! Also had to get a new SIM as my previous number got deactivated and recycled. =( my new nuber is 0177698637 =) Have to make plans lah for the next few days =) Have lost touch in bloging lah, even this post is so dry and meaningless =( but do wait for the coming updates... =(

to welcome me :

done by :

=D
I'm so glad to be home =)))

As Nature would have it .. =P

2009-12-29T02:17:00.002+08:00

Carl Zwanzig: "Duct tape is like the Force. It has a light side, a dark side, and it holds the universe together..."
Douglas Adams: "There is a theory which states that if ever anybody discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another theory which states that this has already happened."
Albert Einstein: "Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former."
Rich Cook: "Programming today is a race between software engineers striving to build bigger and better idiot- proof programs, and the Universe trying to produce bigger and better idiots. So far, the Universe is winning."
Edward P. Tryon: "In answer to the question of why it happened, I offer the modest proposal that our Universe is simply one of those things which happen from time to time."
Max Frisch: "Technology is a way of organizing the universe so that man doesn't have to experience it."
Woody Allen: "I'm astounded by people who want to 'know' the universe when it's hard enough to find your way around Chinatown."
Fred Hoyle: "There is a coherent plan in the universe, though I don't know what it's a plan for."
Christopher Morley: "My theology, briefly, is that the universe was dictated but not signed."
Edward Chilton: "I'm worried that the universe will soon need replacing. It's not holding a charge."
Calvin and Hobbes (Bill Watterson): "The surest sign that intelligent life exists elsewhere in the universe is that it has never tried to contact us."

28-09:

2009-12-29T01:28:00.003+08:00

Facebook says, those who are born on this day are:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information (gossip lah tu..=P). Must control oneself when criticizing ( this one must ask Bulu especially =P). Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports ( =.=" oni badminton lah), leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

i GOTTA get back to ganong now. Physio test tomorrow =)

L.A zy SUnD@Y

2009-12-28T02:13:00.003+08:00

Today is prolly one of the laziest days I've ever had -with more than half the day asleep, and the remaining half was occupied by food and online. Shit.
At least the 8-10.30 slot at the library justified my day lah - so I dont feel all that bad about wasting today. Even so, I dont regret much about not poking my nose into my books as much as I usually do because
1. The weather is so friggin gloomy
2. I rarely get the chance to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeppp like this =P
3. There's tomorrow and the day after.. 2012 is still far away =)
4. I memang up to date with anat and biochem.. only had to do physio which I covered partially in the morning - so I can afford to be blaah

I havent completed my biochem journal and histo manual yet lah for the week.. gotta get to it now. I hate histo, it's so unnecessary I feel.

WAIT! IF today is SUNDAY.. THEN TOMORROW IS ....

sh@#%T!!!

Half-day @ Mangalore

2009-12-27T06:57:00.003+08:00

It's 4.34 a.m in Manipal, I'm not insomniac again, neither do I intend to poke my nose into Ganong ( as I plan to at 8.00 am later) nor am I awake to be online at this hour. I just cant sleep because of all the mosquitoes and their lust for (my) flesh ( blood actually). Besides, I slept quite early last night, so I just thought of updating my blog while I've been kept awake. =(

Yesterday, I went to Mangalore again hoping to watch AVATAR but tickets were all sold out for that and even THREE IDIOTS. So PIZZA HUT was practically the highlight of the day lah..

I really love the garlic bread here lah, way better than that back in Malaysia.

But the best feature of this Outlet was the temple-like bell which had the following sign:

=.="

After clogging up with cholesterol from Pizza Hut, we decided to blow our pancreas with a dose of Baskin Robin's I/C. I had my regular Gold Medal Ribbon =P *drool* Anyways,then we went to Empire Mall - which was very blank even with the bowling alley. Then we patah balik lah to Manipal around 4 sumthing, reached after 6.30pm. And that was our "happening" Christmas weekend lah.. I dunno why but I have this sudden craving for Fish Max.. maybe its coz of Chia Chi's post on it on Facebook. Should convince my konco-konco to makan there lah tonight =P

Oh yea, in case you were wondering, I am planning to make a my posts a lil bit more graphical lah - I noe I cant do is as professionally as Nicholas Heng and Ern Yu but I gotta start somewhere kan?

temples on Christmas =)

2009-12-26T02:55:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TOO ONE AND ALL!
- although my christmas was far from being a merry one =(

My sister, the older one, fractured her leg on Sunday at the Ice Rink of Sunway Pyramid. It got bad and needed surgery.. I just wish I could be at home, just for a little while =( I feels so useless and helpless.. sighzzz.. I wanted to go home , and be with family until new year but usul ditolak mentah-mentah. 2009 is a terrible year - I'll bitch about it a lil laterlah, prolly by the dawn of 2010.

I visited Kollur, the Moogambigai Amman Temple there ( after a long time postponing it) I took the last bus to Kollur from Udupi yesterday, around 6.45pm arrived there about 9.15pm, couldn't find a place to stay nor to makan=( Woke up at 3.30 next morning, went to the river and mandi and then headed to the temple. It was so friggin crowded even at that hour, I was really lucky to be one of the front ones. Its always a magical experience on every visit to this temple =) Then after that, I balik to Udupi. Was soo tired and hungry and really needed to pee badly! Reached my room about 9.30am.. slept until 1.45 then went to makan at 7B's. Then tidur again. Around 6.30, went Sivapaadi temple and then Venugopal temple ( normal routine for Fridays =P). It was mood-lifting lah =)

I pray for a wonderful 2010 for me and family =)

HO HO HO!

Simple times .=(

2009-12-21T23:22:00.005+08:00

Remember the time when
- we could sleep in the whole day, 24/7 and not give a damn to the world outside ?=P

- the finest of food came straight to us and we needn't bother about the calories?

- we were blissfully unaware of the "pain" and "hurt"?

- life was a breeze and stress was just a rumor?

- we could just move around freely knowing we are perfectly safe and nothing could ever go wrong?

- we didn't care enough to be embarrassed?

- we were with the one person we truly loved throughout the entire day?

OWH HOW I Wish I could press my "reset" button - I So Enjoyed MY days
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...as an EMBRYO!!

Pre X-MAS UPDATE

2009-12-21T20:34:00.005+08:00

I'm somehwhat "Happening" in Manipal Yea.. yeaaa... strange but true =P
Much earlier:
I took part in a POTPOURRI competiton.. it was fun lah. Had four rounds, Pictionary, Tom Dick and Harry, Charades, and something else I so malas wanna explain lah =P Mun Xiew, Karthik and I were the BATCH 25 team to make it to the finals but we lost there.. But it was fun max no doubt! =P

I had to picture-ise SCRAMBBLE.. u can see the checken head on top, the egg just below and I was drawing
the pan at the time this photo was taken =)

The other day:
I went clubbing - on Sathia's Bday =P
Technically, it wasnt clubbing but a picture says a 1000 words kan?

Yesterday :
I took part in the Christmas Caroling! It was uber fun I tell yea'.We went to Four lecturers houses and sang many many X-MAS songs.. I was so high on holiday mood =P My kaki damn sakitlah pagi tadi when I woke up from all the standing in the bus and walking etc etc.

Batch 25 MBBS + BDS

Batch 25 with Madam Bincy -
she is my current table teacher
( for anat disection)

on the bus
- being gentlemen by giving the seats to the ladies =P

Caroling =P

It was a fun night lah =) and Nicholas & San Wilkin made it even more fun =S Nicholas exposed the "akka" issue.. AND i got to know JAYPREE is really an item with a child!
That's all lah for now . Wishing You a Merry Merry Xmas! And A Happy New Year

HO HO HO!

E to the M to the OOOOOOOOO!

2009-12-18T00:28:00.002+08:00

Just came back from temple. I think my HDL-levels got boosted due to the long walk =)))
Life is a little bit messy at the moment =S I really have to buck up on Anatomy. Physio and Biochem are getting a lil bit bulky as well. But first year MBBS is okei so far. =) My relatives will be coming down to Manipal next week, am looking forward to that =) Some Malaysian Medical People are in Manipa ady, tomorrow they will be meeting my batch - not so looking forward for that but its still uber.
Manipal is really great lah. On the whole, my batch mates are awesome=) Still, got some pain-in-the-gluteals.. They so pelik lah and soo fake .. heyoo.. Trying to ignore but IT talks for the whole world to listen. The worse part its, I just feeling like telling the World* the truth, but I lack credibility at the moment and I dont wanna upset IT's life too. Shitlah, just have to tolerate. I'm sorry I'm not cool like you lah, you are too awesome to be true..pfftt..
I'm so hungry now, heading to Your Choice. It's past 8.oopm, hope still got enough chicken for me. Hunger+ Annoyance = one dangerous T-MAN. ( I need my dosage of choclose today=()
Hoping to get up in the morning in a happier mode.

Post Blocks Update

2009-12-17T02:43:00.002+08:00

Block 2 has started : Respiratory, CVS, GIT block
It seems more interesting than first block, but much more to learn. I really screwed up the preparation for my first block=S so I better change my ways to be well prepared for Block 2.

My block one results was kinda okei lah except anatomy which I almost failed - got 55 =( Shiiiittt! The irony is, I spent 80% of my studying time with anat, and thats the subject I did worst in. Stupid femoral shit!

Anyways, I've got a stupid SDL ( Suicidal Directed Learning ) tomorrow.. and then PBL presentation next week to study for. Kononnya Problem-Based-Learning tapi konsepnya Learning-Based-Problem... Point is.. yes, there is no point.. so I'll leave it as that.

I'll update more about BLOCK 2 in a while.. to sleepy now =P

Lessons of LIFE

2009-12-08T00:56:00.004+08:00

These are just simple reminders of things we KNOW its true, but sometimes forget =)

Yeap.. life is almost never fair. Religious teachings have stressed that the unjust of life is karma-based =P but in an atheist's point of view, its merely luck. I personally believe that everything happens for a reason, and that God loves us too much to simply cast despair onto our lives.. We just have to BELIEVE and REALIZE and be grateful with what we already have

Its true.. that's why its called the circle of life =)

Patience - goes a long way yea.

-lol- its true actually.. we keep emphasizing on our problems as if our happiness is the axis of Earth's rotation.. pfftt..

Also, ( i got this from my cousin) when people talk behind your back, its only because You are way ahead of them. so chill.. they hate themselves actually, but they just dont noe it =)

It's always okay to win an argument as long as you dont loose a friend..

Let bygones be bygones and morons be morons
- T-Man

cheers!
Godd luck to B25 ANAT PBL presentation tomoro =)

A graphical update =)

2009-12-07T01:56:00.005+08:00

Ussually, my typical posts are very wordy.. so this time, I'm just uploading pics lah..
for the fun of it =)

Band of Brothers

1st year MBBS =)

Hooligans =(

=D

I MADE BANDUNG!! and it was superb (or so the crowd says...)

(Very enterprising =))

The Scenario at MSA drink stall
(only drink stall at the premise =p)

These pics are by Nicholas and M. Syazwan - I am no photographer =)

My gluteal canal is friggin burning.. I guess I am not immune to Fish Max just yet..=P
The rest of my body is aching.. sakit max
But the worst pain to come is ANAT PBL presentation on tuesday! ShiT!!

Legenda 09

2009-12-06T14:12:00.006+08:00

I'm writing this post with a really sore back, blistered feet, heavy eyelids.. and a smile =)
Friday was the college's annual day, which I didnt attend as I wanted to go for prayers that night and also, I had nothing nice and classy to wear=( It seemed swell based on the pics taken by almost everyone, everyone looked simply amazing.. Anyways, I spent that night filling up aquajaal water canisters with water from my hostel =). Next day was legenda.. LEGENDA is uber fun and super tiring =S

10:00 am :
Morning I woke up with a message "I need you to make the posters for the drinks, as we have no time, I hope you can do it". I got up, got ready, went to the stationary shop to get manila cards and marker pens, by the time I came back to the hostel and started with the poster-ing, it was already around eleven o'clock.

12.15:
I was still busy drawing the posters when I get a message from Secretary of MSA to meet at valley view at 1.00pm sharp for dinner with the Malaysian High Com and his Wife. Shiit! I had finished drawing all the posters , but had not decorated them yet, so I just coloured 2 of them and left to valley view. I met Chong , and we left to valley view together =) Lunch was blekzz... But at least we got to personally meet with the High Com and his Wife. Then after 2.30 pm, I balik to my room lah.

2.45pm:
The moment I stepped in to my bilik, I get a call from Acap ( b22, vice president of MSA) that all B25 reps were supposed to meet him at the stage at KMC greens. , I went, and I was given some 4000 coupons to be stamped and chopped.. I dunno where were the other reps of my class but lucky Boh was available.So we went to Food Court and she helped me with the stamping and cutting and stapling. And once we were done, I gave the coupon booklets back to Acap

4.45pm:
I was on my way back to my room to collect the water tanks when Amin called to come to his apartment and collect the sugar water and iced lemon tea. So I did that, and then went to my hostel with him , taking two autos to collect the water tanks. Brought the water tanks To KMC greens and then followed Ruben to Vignesh's place to collect our drink containers ( to serve drinks in) and back to the field.

6.00pm:
I went to Nandhini's to collect my rose syrup and 40liters of milk, then to my hostel to collect the posters and cups. Brought EVERYTHING to Stall no. 16. FINALLY! Then started bancuh-ing.
7.20: LEGENDA '09 was officiated with the lighting of a vilakku, a batik and the dragon dance.. the VIPS then officiated our stalls and we were good to go..

I spent the rest of the night selling drinks. I think we untung banyak though one tank of iced lemon tea wasnt used, and three bottles of soya got spoilt, one rose syrup bottle broke in my room ( and my room still damn sticky even after cuci-ing so many times), Anyways, I have to get back to the accounts.. but I'm still soo sleeepy=P It was really a fun experience and there were a lot of really nice ppl =) I really had fun working with the other MSA-ians... =P My roommate was great, he finished the posters for me =) and there was this one girl who helped me carry the milk to my stall, I dunno her name or from which batch she is from, But God Bless her =) I'm so glad to have experienced Legenda...

BLOCK 1 OVER!

2009-12-01T01:40:00.002+08:00

My first block ended with a bang - yes, the block exams.. I cant say I wasn't warned, but the exams sucked lah.. =( Physio and biochem was okeilah, dont think I did that badly in them.
Anyways, its a new block now. I've learnt that last minute mugging is a real waste of adrenaline and time =S Seriously, if you dont know it already the night before, U will not noe it during the exam. Anat spotters was sial...

Anyways, on a more uber-note, I went to Mangalore with Nik and Murali on Saturday. There was this super uber cool mall : Barath Mall ( assuming Midvalley doesn't exist back home). For the first time , I ate a civilized lunch : Pizza hut! The garlic bread here is soo much more tastier and cheesier.. It just excites all your taste receptors. Then we went beli-belah. i used my ICICI Debit Card for the first time ever to buy headsets =) Then we went for 2012! ITS super fantasticly amazing! I will post another note on the concept of 2012 a lil bit later. Then we leapk around the mall again, and had dinner in a tempek tandoori gerai. Before that, we went to this really cool AC restaurant ( that sold alcohol bdw). We asked if the food was halal , the waiter said "no". then as we got Up to leave, he rushed to me and say "halall! halal! halal!" in a really stupid tempek-ish manner. We just left lah without saying anything. Our trip back to Udup. It took an hour and half, then from Udupi to Manipal we had to take an auto coz bas takde lagi. Balik, mandi, tak pakai baju, lalu tidur ( my room mate left to Kerala, so I spent the night alone =p). My sleep was severely disturbed by the stupid tempeks noises! I was soo in the mood to just sit on one of them.

Anyways, today started block 2. Some of the teachers are sooo friggin pelik!!
Today, we had our PPD CLASS.. we were playing dumb charades..

This video is self-explanatory...

sighzzzzz.....

My batch is uber cool =)

=l

2009-11-23T01:49:00.002+08:00

Yesterday got spotters exam. Damn tension lah I tell you. Got like 25 stations, each with two questions to be answered in one minute. Out of 25 stations, 4 were osteo ( they colour part of the bones, ask u stuff about that part), 3 histo ( the set 3 slides , must observe, identify and jawab) then got 1 embryo chart, 1 radiograph andthe rest were all soft parts ie: Muscle, vessels n nerves.
The questions were pretty simple but I remember getting confused in many stations. Shitlah!! I knew it well the night before but at that time, under pressure, I blank ady =( The most Irritating part of the whole spotters was the teet teet teet teet teet teet teet alarm they use to mark the end of every one minute : damn sial lah that sound, wanna break that thing =s. After exam, I was okei lah, not too affected by it. But everyone around me was like emo sial : wth, wtf, shitlah, omg, etc etc
and emo-ness is pretty contagious, so somehow at the end of the day, even I emo about the darn spotters =P The "terribility..."

Anyways, today, never touch anat! biochem, physio, biochem, physio
Everything is volatile if u approach the subject superficially, it sticks when u betul0betul faham what u read. Im not that inspired to study as much as I used to back in form 6 - I have to get out of this shell =P

Today, I had a long convo with frends back home - online and by line =P It made my day. I miss them =) Currently annoying Shivanan on facebook with "smacks" to humor myself =P Sleepy lahh,.

Charlez Shulz Philosophy

2009-11-19T15:22:00.003+08:00

The
following is the philosophy of Charles Schulz,
the creator of the 'Peanuts' comic
strip.

You don't
have to actually answer the questions. Just
ponder on them. Just read the e-mail straight
through, and you'll get the
point..

1. Name the
five wealthiest people in the
world.

2. Name the
last five Heisman trophy
winners.

3. Name the
last five winners of the Miss America
pageant.

4. Name ten
people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer
Prize.

5. Name the
last half dozen Academy Award winners for best
actor and actress....

6. Name the
last decade's worth of World Series
winners.

How did you
do?

The point
is, none of us remember the headliners of
yesterday. These are no second-rate achievers.
They are the best in their fields. But the
applause dies. Awards tarnish. Achievements are
forgotten. Accolades and certificates are buried
with their owners.

Here's
another quiz. See how you do on this
one:

1. List a
few teachers who aided your journey through
school..

2. Name
three friends who have helped you through a
difficult time.

3. Name
five people who have taught you something
worthwhile.

4. Think of
a few people who have made you feel appreciated
and special!

5.. Think of
five people you enjoy spending time
with.

Easier?

The
lesson:

The people
who make a difference in your life are not the
ones with the most credentials.. the most
money... or the most awards. They simply are the
ones who care the most!
B E A F R I E N D
Make someone smile today, or even better
Do what I do and make people laugh until their stomachs hurt
even if it sometimes they are laughing at you
( in my case, most of the time =P)

Also, just be yourself
The only THING you have is yourself,
Dont give it away by trying to be someone else

Be Youself:
Everyone Else is Taken!=)

-T-man Out-

Unlucky me

2009-11-16T23:12:00.002+08:00

Somehow, I have a force of attraction =S
Lecturers somehow "pick" me ...
Eg:
Mr. Srinivaasa: On the first day at our table, he kept bombarding me with questions sampai I buta ady lah.. Out of 8 questions that day, 5 were directed to me=s And then, during Mr. Ullas Kamath's class ( he replaced Mdm Maya Roche for the day), I was the first person in the entire batch to be questioned, and not just one short question: half the pathway of glycolysis and part of the linking reaction. My my my... At least I get to remember the facts well =)

Yesterday , on the way back from Udupi, the bus conductor, a weird bapok gay fella kept giving "eye contact" to me throughout the journey.. Eeeeee...

Today, I had to get my Practical book wrap, ust about 100 meters from the hostel , it started raining like gila, AND I HAD to get the book wrapped coz tomorrow must submit before physio practicals. So on the way, a bus was passing by and splashed water all over me. A tempek girl walking with a camera, thouh that was amusing, took a few pictures of me getting we and walked off. Shiit .. I tell ya'

Today had nice dinner from Your Choice".

Rice+ Cabbage+ Sweet and Sour Fish+ 1 Karnataka Fried Chicken =)

Piece of advce - as blocks approach...

2009-11-14T13:24:00.002+08:00

The Moment you are in Tension
You will lose your Attention
Then you are in total Confusion
And you will feel Irritation
Then you will spoil personal Relation
Ultimately, you won't get Co - Operation
Then you will make things Complication
Then your blood pressure may raise Caution
And you may have to take Medication
Instead, understand the Situation
And try to think about the Solution
Many problems will be solved by Discussion
This will work out better in your Profession
Don't think it's my free Suggestion
It's only for your Prevention
If you understand my Intention
You will never come again to Tensiion

Experimental subject =)

2009-11-13T20:29:00.008+08:00

I've been often used as a subject in Physio experiments. I think so far, been pricked thrice. Once for blood grouping, once for Clotting Time and lastly for Hemoglobin content estimation. ( The last time, Low Qin Jia cucuk so hard I almost tampar her face.. ishh=S) The best one was during the clotting time, three other people were pricked but not enough blood keluar- I saved the day lah.. I helped the teaching and learning process of the day =P Boh pricked my finger- no pain oso=D

My blood clotted after 2 minutes - very fast indeeed =P

Sighzz.. blocks in a week +. Today had a Mock Physio Practical test.. Uber.....

Also, Elisha ( our batch female rep, the "sassy" one , kononnya) entered me in a cartoon-ing competition. WTH!! Since when I could draw cartoons, and her excuse was.. err.. I cant remember, but I know it was bodoh - coz there's no way anyone would simply put me up for cartooning. I'll get my revenge somehow.

Today, Director General Of the Ministry of Health of Malaysia visited us today.. He is cooooll...

Will be going to temple in a while.. Me really love the bhajans there =) Soo nice their singing.. I wanna join, but I so cacat =P Dont wanna jejaskan their image. I shall try though, someday, eventually =)

A word of advice.. better watch your back or else :

Stuff from Mails..

2009-11-11T01:22:00.006+08:00

Got this amazing flow chart while "juz checking mails n stuff"..

seems simple enough =)

Mail #2:

A female NTV reporter arranged for an interview with a farmer living just outside Dildo, Newfoundland, to find the main cause of the Mad Cow Disease.

Lady reporter: "Good evening, sir. I am here to collect information on the possible source of Mad Cow Disease. Can you offer any reason for this disease".

The farmer stared at the reporter and said: "Do you know that a bull mounts a cow only once a year"

Lady reporter (obviously embarrassed): "Well, sir, that's a new piece of information, but what's the relation between this phenomenon and Mad Cow disease".

The farmer: "And, madam, do you know that we milk a cow twice a day".

The reporter: "Sir, this is really valuable information, but what about getting to the point."

Farmer: "I am getting to the point, madam. Just imagine, if I was playing with your tits twice a day and only screwing you once a year, wouldn't you get mad"?

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It Happens...

Awesome Factor of M3C

2009-11-10T15:38:00.003+08:00

Here in MMMC, Manipal, the lecturers are REAAALLLY awesome. for multiple reasons:

1. They do ALL they can to make sure we are thorough and betul-betul faham what they teach, they dont just pour out knowledge; they get satisfaction only when they are sure we are quite okei with the subJect. It's really amazing lah.. God Bless them.

2. They dont just come to class and teach, they try to develop a strong relationship with the students. This is true especially with Mr. Sudarshan, Mr. Sareesh and Mr. Raghu. They are really very open with us. Mr. Sudarshan actually stopped the class today to ask if we were doing okay in Manipal.. coz he felt that the response from our side has been decreasing drastically.- and he insisted on an answer ( fatherly much.).. One girl was frank, expressing that ALL the teachers are pouring out so much information in such short time, we can barely retain anything - he assured us it will be okay, he advised us to be organized :

" Organize yourself, and Life respects you"

- Mr. Sudarshan

There are so many other times when other lecturers showed just as much concern, but I am only naming this coz it happened today, and it was a mood-lifter. Blocks exams are in two weeks, I'm so blur about embryology, I'm catching up with Gross Anatomy. Its a good thing I'm more less on par with Physio and Bio - doesn't build much tension at this time. Anyways, gotta get organized lah and just give my best shot.

It's still raining. I want to sleep, but got dissection in 20 mins. Pfftt..
I wanan go ask Mr. Sudarshan to take a PPD class - it wud be worth the shot =)

Then and Kini

2009-11-09T19:40:00.005+08:00

..

Two months ago,
- I hardly spoke a word to anyone, even my friends in the next room
Now:
- They have to chase me away from their room , one even locked me in my room last night. When I stay quite for more than 3 minutes, people will ask me wats wrong =D Chehh!

Then:
- I was really worried if I could adapt well/easily into a new environment ( eN-vEE-oN-mENT ). Now... ... =P
- I wish I could be invisible sometimes=) Today for histo class, the Lecturer ask the class if there was anyONE in the class who could draw well ( had to draw the cross section of bone).. and the class unanimously got me to be that lucky ONE. pfftt..
Then :
Anat not so hard lah... bolehlah get distinction
Now:
HOW TO @#$%&*^ PASS ANATOMY!!!?

Then:
Err.. excuse me??
Now:
BOSS!! ( even once to my lecturer - accidentally =S)

Then :
Food Court
Now:
ANYWHERE but food court!!
---

"EXPERIENCE MAKETH A MAN"

Today is a really gloomy day- Me am liking it. Not hot and not too cold. Just nice to sleep. But have to study, so I hope the rain stops soon. hehe

So hungry, skipped lunch today =S Planing to eat Nasi Lemak Ayam from Cheff Inn nanti.

Leg , back and arm paining - specifically : deltoid, trapezius, biceps brachii, gluteal maximus and quadriceps femoris - coz of badminton yesterday.

Histo :

I'm not that bad lah actually...

Milanois Hide and Seek Cookies +
Fresh and Honest'S Hot Chocolate +
Rainy Day
= contempt T-MAN

All I need left is sleep
zzz.....z...z..z
Playlist for a rainy day
- Avril -When You're Gone
- Beyonce - Halo
- Daughtry - Feel's Like Tonight
- Daughtry - What About Now
- Archuleta - A lil too not over you
Elliot Yaamin - Wait for yOU
- Jason Miraz - Lucky
-Jesse Mc Cartney- Beautiful SOUL
- Jesse Mc Cartney - It's Over
Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You
Sempurnaa...
Plain White T's - Hey tHERE Delilah
Shontelle- T-shirt
Thriving Ivory

~J1W@NG~

SUNDAY SUNDAYY..

2009-11-09T00:34:00.005+08:00

Today was a real sunday-Sunday; the weather was awesome, it wasnt raining but it was gloomy enough to sleeeeeeeeeeppp.. did'nt study much today- just did muscles of Gluteal region, and biochem : reactions of glycolysis and HMP ( okei, that's quite a lot actually, but I did it all in the morning itself)=P. Had lunch at MC and Dinner at Your Choice - typical =S I'm getting bored of the food here, Nasi Lemak Ayam from cheff inn is so friggin expensive but yummy=). Sighzz....

Two weeks + for block exams.. Physio and Biochem is okei.. ANAT is a real b****! Study so much oso tak boleh retain - aiyoooo.. I'm making it more difficult for myself by hating the subject, pfftt. Mr. Sudarshan was good, I miss him and his quotes. Mr. Naren tinggalkan us after a week to go to Gentings. Mr. Srinivasan pulak kept attacking me on first day, after that he oso okei lah, very clear his explanation. HEYOO.. no matter how good the teacher can be, anat sucks lah and I suck at it=(

Today, I played badminton after many many months. I suck lah =( but it was fun no doubt, though it brings back many many "memories".. I have to get a racket lah tomorrow. Yesterday, Football tournament b22-b25, our batch lost 3-0 but it was a fun experience. I wish I could play footie, but they'd prolly make me the bola =S

The team =)

The supporters=D
(* pics I stole from Mohd. Syazwan =P, hope he dont mind )

Oh bdw, I got rid of the pain-in-the arse lah.. life is so much more simpler and comfortable now. No need for layaning nonsense people. But I do feel bad for hurting its* feelings but Just becoz I look bubbly , doesn't mean I dont get marah. ( bak kata pujangga Melayu : air tenang jangan sangka tiada buaya =)cheh... ) In fact, If I marah,you wanna suicide lah =) Bottom line is, dont take advantage of people and don't be selfish- very hard to mend friendship, like neurons. If less than 3mm, then can repair, but not completely perfect oso. More than 3 mm, no chance lah. Anyways, it is just one person, got so many more awesome people in my batch. Must alwez be positive and appreciate the good things we have =)

Me is liking Manipal a lott =)

Tomorrow is Monday..

It's true..

"ENGLISH"

2009-11-08T01:11:00.002+08:00

Got this in a mail, thought of sharing it with you people to brighten up your day

PECULIARITIES OF ENGLISH =s

We'll begin with a box, and the plural is boxes,
But the plural of ox becomes oxen, not oxes.
One fowl is a goose, but two are called geese,
Yet the plural of moose should never be meese.
You may find a lone mouse or a nest full of mice,
Yet the plural of house is houses, not hice.

If the plural of man is always called men,
Then shouldn't the plural of pan be called pen?
If I speak of my foot and show you my feet,
And I give you a boot, would a pair be called beet?
If one is a tooth and a whole set are teeth,
Why shouldn't the plural of booth be called beeth?

Then one may be that, and three would be those,
Yet hat in the plural would never be hose,
And the plural of cat is cats, not cose.
We speak of a brother and also of brethren,
But though we say mother, we never say methren.
Then the masculine pronouns are he, his and him,
But imagine the feminine: she, shis and shim!

Let's face it - English is a crazy language.
There is no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger;
neither apple nor pine in pineapple.
English muffins weren't invented in England ..
We take English for granted, but if we explore its paradoxes,
we find that quicksand can work slowly,

boxing rings are square,

and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing,
grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham?
Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend.
If you have a bunch of odds and ends
and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught?
If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat?
Sometimes I think all the folks who grew up speaking English
should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane.

In what other language do people recite at a play and play at a recital?
We ship by truck but send cargo by ship.
We have noses that run and feet that smell.
We park in a driveway and drive in a parkway.
And how can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same,
while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites?

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language
in which your house can burn up as it burns
down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out,
and in which an alarm goes off by going on.

And, in closing, if Father is Pop, how come Mother's not Mop?

I WOULD LIKE TO ADD THAT IF PEOPLE FROM POLAND ARE CALLED POLES THEN

PEOPLE FROM HOLLAND SHOULD BE HOLES AND THE GERMANS GERMS!!!

BUZZYY!!

2009-11-05T00:41:00.004+08:00

The past week been so friggin busy lah.. We've completed upper limb in anatomy , basic concepts of Biochem, muscles and RBCS in physio.. and now we're rushing through with everything else, block exams are arriving soon ="( so fast time flies, I think Ive already been in Manipal for 7 weeks . I miss some of the lecturers like muscle lady ( mdm Surekha Kamath) and Mdm Surekha Bhat. ALL the lecturers are friggin awesome =0 , u'll be amazed with their style .

Anyways.. my bank account in ICICI hasnt been activated yet. This is really pissing me off, everyday have to go to that stupid bank and see the same ugly blur faces and get the same irritating answer "Not yet, in two days time" ...
Class tests : Biochem was senang, physio was okei lah, ANATOMY : ARGHHh!!!!!

Today had PPD again, this time, there were actual activities.. eee.. The theme was regarding mentor-mentee relationship. I repeat : eeeee
The class was split to 6 groups, in each group, one studnet had to play the role of the mentor, another as the mentee, and we were given a certain scenario to act. As I am the unlucky one, I had to play the role as the mentor and Nicholas Heng, the mentee. Mentee was about to sit for first uni examination , and mentor had to advice him to remain calm. Among the dialouge :

Nic : Got any tips ah for exam? Anat, Biochem, Physio??
T-man : Owh sorry, I'm in the pharmacology dept.
Nic : Cannot study lah! So much ! Summore Fresh and Honest Coffee got cockroaches inside
T-man : Cockroach oni came to coffee shop for one day, the other days in the 10 weeks cud have studied rite?
Nic : Any advice ah for studying?
T-man : STRICTLY SPEAKING , you must follow a routine, you must have enough sleep,(According to Mr. Sudarshan) and You must eat breakfast, it is the most important
meal of the day ( - Mdm Sharmila Torke - my mentor), is it NOT?
Nic : How to answer exam???
T-man : MTF, shade true/false ; essay use pen and write, simple!!

the rest of the group were suppose the asses the way the mentor/memtee conducted themselves in the interaction. Some of my group members stated " mentor was soft, funny fatherly, and very concerned about Mentee's health" =D

I cant remember the rest of the convo, but I was, no doubt, entertaining, as always =)
Bottom line :

PPD BODOH!!

CONCEPT MAP - MAKAN AT MANIPAL

2009-10-29T02:02:00.008+08:00

PPD = Professional and Personal Development
is part of our curricular =0 .. I really feel its a waste of time , especially since our batch has had many many holidays, but its really fun lah - coz its soo.. boodoh.
Today , we were exposed to the idea of concept mapping - You cannot believe the things that were running thru my head that one friggin hour. Anyways, at the end of the hour, we were asked to generate our own concept map about anything we want. Here's what I came up with :

correction : Nice-setting ( as in the environment)

The ones in red are the popular spots lah. I really shoud take pics of the food I eat and post them up here - as suggested by yusof@Jospeh Archedonia smth smth.. Anyways, I was just chilling from preparing for biochem test tomorrow. lol =) good luck b25 in all class test!

Funny stories of the day :
Today, out of excitement in anat lecture, I tersilap called the lecturer "Boss, where does the suprascapular artery come from, boss?" Manipal is seeping into me soul =S. I really hope he didnt hear it.

Also, when we went for chaaya at the fresh and honest stall near Nehru, the "boss" there was raba-raba-ing his gluteal region/ass while mixing my hot choco. I was like WTH-lah!? Dahlah, yesterday ada cockroaches all in the stall, at least try to give the customers a good impression today lah. Pfttt..

Ikan out of water

2009-10-28T02:49:00.003+08:00

I have mentioned before in a prior post, I'm slow at adopting. And I keep doing/saying stupid things and get me in trouble. I have to somehow break free from gullibility=(. My course is going on just fine, but I have to work on blending in to the community. I don't wanna be isolated ( isolation sucks=q) but susah lah for me to go with the flow- im so rigid, my inertia manyak besar mah. I am seizing most of the opportunities =) Anyways, this week is Class Test Week - Thursday got biochem ( me am reaaallly friggin loving biochem!) , Saturday got Physio test and Monday.. a..an..anat!! eeee.. Monday, on its own,sucks! Why fuel the suck-iness with anat class test!? Today there was rotation in the table lecturers. I am missing Mr. Sudarshan =) He was cool. Mr. Naren is good too. Today is my father's 50th Birthday. Sighzz. =) I'm good, I'm good =)

Biosphere-Manipolosphere =P

2009-10-26T02:31:00.007+08:00

Its very fascinating how nature can actually reflect man's ways... Being away from family, there's so much exposure and one really needs to take care of oneself. I always have this problem of being really shy and soft - a real disadvantage especially now when I'm away from home. And then, I get tension very easily and panic for no obvious reason =P Schoolmates may noe me better, but people here find it weird =S Anyway, so far in Manipal, everything has been simply great. However, I've encountered little issues here and there - not much of a problem, more of something to make u realize you kinda have to jaga diri here, especially when you're new.

1st : Refraction - Distortion
Different people got different wavelengths in thinking. So obviously, if one doesn't hit the nail at its head and be friggin precise in what he says, people gonna take it the wrong way. The tongue is already in a slippery place - jaga sikit lah. Dont be so blah when expressing yourself.

Refraction - same light, different angles Occurs only when sudut sinar is not 90 degrees
Note: be direct.

2nd. Parasitism-Mutualism-Simbiosis
Earth is truly a fascinating biosphere. And the inter-organism relationship is truly amazing, all the interactions except parasitism.

It always start as commensalism ( one benefits, the other doesnt gain doesnt loose) but then , due to human nature, ego and ignorance get in the way, hence, parasitism. Its very difficult tau to handle such specimens, especially when they are considered "rakan seperjuangan". If I say something, I'll be making a big deal out of "nothing" , and if I dont say anything, my comfort is being compromised and I get so freaking annoyed. So far I haven't said anything, we are all new to this place. Please utilize your grey matter and think about other people lah.Pfftt.. If I marah, u die lah =q

But on the whole, people here have been cool. Food is great, egestion not so. I love it here. Its gonna be a great 2 and a half years ( I assume so , at this point =P) The little little problems do come and do go, it makes it all the more fun , in a way. I'm so friggin sleepy now and I haven't done my Histo drawing for tomorrow. VK rawkz!

money money money

2009-10-25T12:51:00.004+08:00

Okay people, here's the deal =P I've been blogging for about a year and a half, and I am kinda uber coz somehow I manage to get a good flow of traffic to my blog daily. So yea, with the advantages, I've decided to monetize my blog. You can observe the adds units placed above and on the right hand side. I dont really noe how much I get paid, but I noe that I DO get paid =P So , faithful followers of this awesome bloggie, do your part and please continue visiting this site.Optional : Click on the adds for fun, u noe, just to see what happens. Sumbangan anda amat dihargai especially since my budget is a big big ploblem in Manipal. A happy T-man is just a click away =P

Moments good enuf to last forever

2009-10-24T19:42:00.003+08:00

Apparently in medic school, Im surrounded by studying people. No no, they are no nerds, but they study study and study. I'm so over that zone lah, esp after form 6. I have to get back in, but the dark haunting memories of STPM keeps haunting me=( So, I just study to study lah. Aiming for distinction for thr first block at least =P Goals make me move.

Anyways, I was having a conversation with my friend earlier and apparently, I am not missed by anyone of them , back in SEREMBAN. Reason being, I keep interacting with them just as I did back home. Only now, more online than off. =) I;m taking that as a bad thing disguised as a good thing. I should be missed. I spent 2 years ady with them, and now when I leave for two years, there's no difference in their lives?? The terribility! I ust woke up from my afternoon nap, and I had the best dream ever, I dreamt I was back in U65 and Hafidah was teaching action potential. I miss school! I miss Seremban!

Here are a few moments that made Form 6 the experience it was for me =P
1. During Hafidah's class one day, I put my middle fingers in the small holes on either side of the chair and got stuck to it. Paul, being the best friend possible, stopped the class and diverted their attention to the chubby boy trying to break free from his chair. Mann!!!
2. Orientation Day, I was being all "steady" and "macho" when I slipped and fell in front of the lower sixes, and my pants koyak. fortunately, I was wearing shorts inside =.="
3. In prefect's camp, Paul kept pushing me off the bed.
4. Then there was Miss M from my class , who liked Mr. P from another class , and , I dont understand why, she had the urge to share her passion with our class teacher. I gather that, my class teacher assumed she was gila coz she was sent for counselling the next day.
5. Paul says" he is the gangster of rasah kemayan..." as though Rasah Kemayan is like one uber happening metropolitan
6. The last movie I went for before I left to India, I wore my shirt inside out, throughout the entire day. Paul noticed the label on the outside as I was getting into my car.
7. My blog post about school one day sparked a "bush-fire" in the staff room. That was pretty uber lah.

Got so many more lah.. I just remembered laughing so hard almost everyday in school =)
Manipal is happening, but I have to somehow get in that flow =) I always have this stupid problem of opening up slowly to new faces . Pftt. I don't usually make very good first impressions, but I do make lasting ones once you noe me =P

Manipal - Malaysia =)

2009-10-24T02:11:00.002+08:00

Things I miss doing back home :
1. Watching FRIENDS with my younger sis until 2 or 3 am
2. DRIVING my persona!!
3. Makan at al-wazer with Paul, Theish and Yusof =)
4. online 24/7
5. TV!
6. AIR-COND!!
7. Home-cooked food ="(
8. Snickers
9. Ready made coffee on the table every morning =)
10. Taking KTM all the way to midvalley just to makan Nando's =) ( Koleppu)
11. Online 24/7
12. Fly FM!

Things I like about Manipal
1. End-point =)
2. Physio and Biochem ( I ust effing hate anat!!)
3. Bumpy Bus rides to Udupi
4. Chaya (Ussually just minum Hot choco for rs15 in the evenings and at night)
5. Manipal Canteen's squid and curds
6. Cadavers - Dissection
7. Nasi lemak from Cheff Inn
8. PBL Brainstorming
9. Most important : my batchmates =D
10. Ice Cream and Cookies =)

Things in Manipal I could live without
1. Mr. Paneer Cream
2. Anatomy!!
3. Honks
4. Curfew
5. Budget ='(
6. Telemarketing rubbish by AIRTEL
7. Diarrhea
8. PBL presentation =)
9. Pseudo-Malaysian-Chinese food
10. Limited access to internet - temporary
11. Classes starting at 8am and 2.00 pm. Pfttt!

Here are a few funny stories to share with you people, as ussual:
1. Airtel keeps sending stupid messages and quiz and survey craps via sms. Last night, I decided to respond to one of this nonsense. It was a stupid question in Hindi and I replied eff-off , only, in a more direct way. Seconds later, I get a Thankyou-for-your-cooperation message from Airtel. You're welcome.. I guess..

2. We ordered pizza from dominoes a few weeks back. Normally when we order, we give our hp numbers so that they can contact us once the food arrives at the hostel. 28 minutes after placing our order, my friend decided to wait downstairs for the pizza ( he didn't wait Domino's call). Once he collected the pizza and came back up to the room, he received a message from Domino's that read " Domino gays are waiting outside". My friend obviously didnt respond to that message, and he received another two IDENTICAL messages. Pissed he was, Amused the rest of us were. After weeks, I finally pointed out the possibility that those dumb-ass domino guys spelt "guys" as "gays". ... ... 0.0"...

That's all folks! You can be rest assured more of these nonsense stories will be presented soon enough. Till then, tc!